Thursday, September 29, 2011
Gosh, I sort of quarrelled with her again yesterday... That's our medium of communication? I am passively aftering you in my heart and yet all these quarrelling to make your impression towards me fluctuate, was it even necessary?
Look man, Its not that I LOVE quarrelling with you...But its just that using harsh tones can only make you so-called "wake up" from your weaknesses. Everytime when I speak to you nicely compared to a harsh one, you end up got less alerted and tentatively take it slowly than when I am harsh to you. Im sorry that whatever I quarrel with you always end up I demoralised you, but I believe its the only way to alert your weaknesses because I realised NO ONE out there is scolding you. And so here I am to do the "bad guy's" job to direct you into the correct path for your own good. It's a way of showing concern isnt it, even though it was a harsh one?
Of course when you finally walk onto the right path of life and get rid of your bad habits, I wont be scolding you when unnecessary aye? I can tell that sometimes you are unhappy with my naggyness and disputes with you, but come'mon if it can agitate you to improve for the better in exchange for you feeling unhappy with me, it's worth it right? :)
Heys it's precisely because I love you and care about you that's why im doing all the scolding... My god, im aftering you passively and do I even need to necessarily make you get unhappy with me when I am supposed to make your impression with me better and better each day, such that you will change your mind one day?
But all I want to let you know is that im showing my WORSE side to you. And which in other words means that if we were to get into a relationship, this is the worse side of me! I am serious! I wont be like the other guys who are aftering you or how your ex boyfriends when they are aftering you they show their best side to you initially and then after that, their petformance decrease each day until you all have to quarrel one day and finally break off. instead, here I am showing my worse side to you first then later on each day I show better and better performance as a ... Boyfriend or whatever that you call it. Damn, it hurts each time when I have to scold you do you know that? I dont enjoy scolding you at all! You are someone who I love, why would I want to upset or hurt you? ...
Alright thats all for now, time to resume gym and train up! :)
Signing off...
Xenon Tan
Finished @ 2:01 PM
