Friday, August 20, 2010
After 12 days of apocalypse...
Finally things are settled...
100% solved...
Once again...
Sorry Jiecheng, Jun Han and Jie for all those problems...
Lols i just realised that they three are triple JJJ :D
Hopefully we all learned something from it...
There were good and bad consequences though...
The good side was that i learned many things from this...
Not to think too much and get too sensitive...
Making assumptions of other people...
And to be more mature too...
Hopefully that they are more tenacious too now...
Wish I will not repeat my mistakes again...
And change my attitude, character and thinking...
Making more people to find me acceptable...
Cherish those friends and mentors around you...
I also realised the good sides of some caring mentors too...
Thank you kind souls!
They are...
Timothy, Joey, Samantha, Ujun, Weide and Rebecca...
And also two of my friends, Mei xuan and Sebastian...
However, everything comes with a price too...
There were definitely much aftermath damaging consequences...
Firstly, jie sorry for hurting you so much and making you cried...
And JH too...
For causing so much trouble between you two...
After this...
I am sure i and jie's friendship will be damaged somehow...
And not to be as close as ever again...
But well its ok...
At least i didnt lose her as a friend or become enemies...
As for JH and Jie cheng...
I don't know whether we will ever meet again...
Hahas enough of all these pessimistic stuff...
Tommorow will be samantha's birthday...
We are giving her a surprise somehow...
Hopefully mentoring club will be fun tommorow!
And mentors go out for an outing tommorow...
Weide must take pictures if he goes :DD
Signing off here...
Bye!!!
Finished @ 2:45 PM
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
What have i done this few days?
I just keep making things worse and worse...
I felt as if some evil possessed me...
I couldn't control my emotions...
I can't believe what i did...
I thought she was a hypocrite...
And i can't believe i said that to her...
What have i done???
I misunderstood her excessively...
Things are now indeed a pandemonium...
Why did i do that???
I just found out...
I misunderstood her right from the very beginning...
And it just got deeper each day...
Things were not the way i thought...
I accused her of a "hypocrite"???
I must be really mad to have said that...
I can't imagine how she felt when she knew that...
If her best friend didnt say out the truth yesteday...
I would still had hated her and thought she was a hypocrite!
Damn! I misunderstood her so much!
Despite how she defended me and all that...
This is what i repaid her?!?
I can't imagine how mad she got at me...
I really can't...
Because of this...
Many people are going to hate me again...
Her friends...
Her boyfriend...
Her clique...
Those mentors by her side...
Really...
I keep making enemies...
Waves of mistakes and troubles just keep coming...
I feel so useless all the time...
I am such a heartless person...
I did so many evil things...
Why can't i just be a normal person...
Doing things that are acceptable to people?
Why must i always make others hate me?
Why?!?
I felt that i am not fit to be a mentor...
I thought of quitting mentoring club...
I told samantha that a lot of times...
But she persuaded me to stay...
I really hate myself now...
What have i done?!?
Is there something wrong with me...
She did so many things for me...
And times again and again i just keep accusing her...
An act that is unforgivable...
Why did i said something so heartless?!?
If only time could be reversed...
How i wish none of this has happened...
Commiting such monsterous and evil acts...
I keep hurting those that helped me...
Misunderstanding them as cunning and "fake" people...
Damn! Whats wrong with me?!?
Those are really unrepentable sins...
Anyway thanks jie cheng for telling me what happened...
I even misunderstood you too...
When i knew how she defended me right from the start...
My mind was in a blank...
I cried for a moment...
Why was she so foolish?
She should had told me what happened exactly...
But she took up the whole responsiblity by herself...
And told me everything was fine the next day...
But in fact...
They quarrelled many times...
She didn't want me to worry over it...
She was such a nice girl...
She kept defending me and didnt want to hurt both parties...
But i thought for the sake of saving herself...
She did smth else and thought she was the same as others...
Who just do things for the sake of saving themselves...
And accused her of being a hypocrite...
I misunderstood her so much...
I said that to her so heartlessly...
Just how deep did i hurt her with those acts?
I just can't stop thinking of it now...
What i did and all that...
It ponders on my mind every second...
I don't even know how should i face her now...
She must really hate me a lot now...
I really gotta do alot of self-reflection now...
And make up for my sins...
Its raining heavily now...
I felt even more emo...
Argh!!! Minghao can you just stop thinking too much!?!
多一事不如少一事...
All i beg for now is that everything's damage is minimal...
I hope that she was not so hurt...
JUST FOR THE SAKE OF WHAT I DID!
Its not worth seriously...
Over such a hopeless person like me...
Please...
I pray that everything is fine
Just let her forget everything...
The pain...
The accusation...
Thanks...
Finished @ 5:19 PM
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Recently many things happened...
It is a indeed a period of darkness...
One mentor, samantha said that when the cloudy sky is over...
Sunshine will come next...
Thank you samantha! I felt better!
I guess i learnt much in mentoring club...
The first time i joined it, i thought it wasn't the cca for me...
But as time passes...
I felt that i have really learned many values in this cca...
I used to be very oblivious, bad-tempered and nonsentic...
But mentoring club made me calmed myself down...
Because you learn many experiences from the mentors...
To me, it brought much life to me but also much misery to me...
It brought life to me because the mentors there are nice...
When i am there, i really feel that i belong there...
I feel very comfortable with the mentors...
They are all matured, friendly, kind and helpful...
I made many new and close friends there...
Most of them were trustworthy...
You do not have to worry about sharing problems with them...
Such that they will take it seriously and help you...
Some of them are...
Weide, Samantha, Audrey, Timothy, Joey, Shawn, Weijie,
Syafiqah, Shermaine, Sky...
Thank you guys!
However, some mentors still quitted eventually...
Each with their own problems and reasons...
Regarding misery...
Sighs many things happened...
She brought most happiness but also most misery to me...
When i really found someone that i can trust...
Somethings just have to happen...
I guess this is really fate...
A small fire became a big fire...
And now its like an inferno...
Really very hard to extinguish it...
Within one month...
So many things happened...
3 parties were affected...
And drifted me and them apart...
Even the aftermath...
Her best friend just have to say all this to her...=.=
I must really "thank" him a lot...
Finished @ 9:34 PM
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Recently been to Science centre with some mentors...
Weide, Audrey, Shawn and Gilbert...
The mentor polo tee we are wearing now is not cool enough...
Must upgrade and upsize!
Here are some photos i have uploaded...
Sorry has been busy recently...XD
Epic one
The light behind is so flouroscent!
Omg Do-reh-me-far stairs here..!!
Nice sky! So clear and blue!
Most loyal mentors (Audrey missing XD)Finished @ 1:11 PM
