ASCENSION - DIGITAL GAMES

Romance, Rainfall and Rainbows

2012-02-16T23:35:00.000+08:00

2 more months = HERE I COME new poly life!

Great, my blog is almost dead.

Anyway, no one will really read my blog right?

It shall be dedicated to myself alone.

Well well, life isnt really getting on smoothly for me at all.

1st, R/S problem.

2nd, I just lost my handphone. $500 gone like that.

3rd, semi-depression.

Phew. I know I am strong but I am just... Emotionally weak at times.

None of the people around knows this but... Yeah. I gotta change.

Here's the main problem.

Firstly, I fell in love with a simple girl.

Now, I fall in love with a complicated girl.

And when i say complicated it's really... Not a good thing you see.

For 10 months, she was such a nice girl in my mind.

Smart, confident, caring, pretty, interesting, interactive.

BUT...

Just when i was about to confess to her soon,

Unexpectably I discovered her dark side and ugly past.

Gosh, and i just found it out myself, she hided it so well.

Now, thousands of thoughts race through my mind.

Pieces of puzzles discovered seemed to gave more clues

of what kind of a girl she exactly is. She's much more

complicated than who she appears to be on the surace.

What is her true identity?

Why is she hiding her dark side?

What is the story of her past life?

What is her true intentions?

After all the things, is she even a virgin?

There's only 2 distinct possibilites of her true-self.

Either real good or real bad.

(Good)

She has changed now for the better from her dark side of her past.

She does not wants to repeat a same life mistake again.

A virgin, all the things she mentioned was just casual jokes.

Truely works toward her dreams, filled with sincerity and honesty.

Interacts with decent social influence and wants to lead others.

Intelligently without ulterior motives and use it for good purposes.

Wants a man to truely love her and persues after a proper love life.

Passionate. Truely cares about family, romance and friends around her.

(Bad)

What she truely is internally is the opposite of her external surface life.

She indulges with a life of mess and 'underground' bad social influence.

Not a virgin and engages with a messed sex life from the past till now.

Filled with ulterior motives for making use of men and friends around her.

Lied all the time to mislead people into perceiving her as a great nice girl.

Extremely materialistic and wealth is prior to her.

Filled with vengeance for the rest of her life.

The thing is, she seems to be a contradictory combination of both cases.

Which is her real life and truth? It just gets more and more disturbing.

In less than 10 days, the confession date will most likely occur.

Be which is her truth side, all will be known on that day.

I have already accepted her ugly past, weaknesses and dark side,

I dont mind being with this kind of girl but... I only hope she is honest.

I truely wishes her to be a nice changed girl and not the opposite/same.

That is all i ask for, just solely a proper great life partner.

Otherwise I will be really, really, ... disappointed.
Be strong, everything will look brighter ahead soon.

Xenon

Back after a long time

2012-02-07T23:18:00.001+08:00

I am back, like after really a long time. Not just long, but it feels like for decades that kind of long.

I miss all my friends, I really do.
A new journey awaits, but the scars of the old memories remained.

I felt in love, deeply with her. Witty 19 year old her with warm smiles and a heart of gold, a wonderful girl indeed. I will work hard for her, I do.

All begins in April 2012.
I will be back.

Xenon

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Most memorable RED CAMP ever!

2011-11-25T13:50:00.001+08:00

Finally red camp ended with a great ending! What a wonderful camp that leaves an indellible impact on people! The 1,800 secondary school campers literally teared on the last when they were supremely touched by the impact of the camp! All I can say is that it is the most wonderful and prestigious poly event I ever participated! Oh my, the gap between NYP and NP REALLY has a DIFFERNTIABLE negligible feel! NP really made me felt like a family member to their campus!

The student leaders in NP are only Year 1, but they were so much more better and efficient than NYP Year 2 & 3 SLs! Those 80+ SLs were shortlisted among 1500+ candidates, no doubt they were the toppiees in tge cream of the crowd! I swear next year it will be my turn to ROLL NP SL'S ROLE! <3

Day 1 was great!
Day 2 was extremely impactful!
Day 3 was most memorable!

NP really has a REAL campus life! The people there are much more prestigious, caring, loving, fun and bonded than NYP students! Oh my... I would never forget the core 5 Apache cheers! After the camp, the motivation really gonna make mr appeal and fight my way through to NP BS by hook or by crook! <3

Play freaking hard and work freaking deeply in NP, GETCHA LIFE! Speaking about the camp... The camp was so powerful that all the secondary students go mad, cried and adrenalized over going to NP next year, which this wouldnt had happen for NYP! NP's state-of-the-art facilities, performances, people, events and accomodation during the camp really gave us a MAJOR SURPRISE! First time so high and surprised by a poly's event creation!

Dont believe about what happened in the camp? Let the photos and videos I am going to upload onto FB soon speak for me! <3

Xenon

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RED CAMP 8!

2011-11-22T19:48:00.001+08:00

Oh my geek just finished day 1 camp! Red camp 8 was one of the best poly event I ever joined! The people there are awesome, warm-hearting and charismatic!

Out of the 5 ancient tribes in NP - Apache, Ninjas, Spartans, Vikings and Centurions, I was posted to Apache (The red indianZ). The camp really gave a contrasting surprise compared to NYP, an awesome fresh new experience with their state-of-the-art hosting and infrastructures. Woah, there I go being a crazist over NP again~ NP provided our meals with seoul garden and breeks for day 1! Woah, how generous of NP. That's what I love about their caption reality - "Xtraordinary Polytechnic"!

I seriously, seriously, seriously wish to be enrolled into NP Business Studies even more after interacting with the adrenalined-business students there!

Hah! I was the sole ex-polytechnic camper there, and I really love the facial reactions of the NP SLs curiosity when they knew that! Urgh, NP NP NP again, cant wait to enrol in! Shall be prepared for day 2 tmr!

Xenon

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Breakthrough!

2011-11-13T21:44:00.001+08:00

Geez, yesterday was my first time spending overnight at my friend's house! Played mahjong with Hope Church friends from 1am till morning 9am at wei hong's house and then we went straight for breakfast! But, I am entirely exhausted now... urgh... Shall have a real long sleep tonight in this chilly nice weather!

Oh great, NP camp is just another 8 days away! Shall do some career planning before till then first!

Well...
Here comes the problem now... The past feuds I made with some of the people in NYP still persist now... Guess I will just have to be submissive to them for now first till I switch to NP. What a mess of the impacts I left in NYP previously, really :(

Well well, let no minor obstacles block your journey path xenon. Things will progress better each day! Next preceeding task is to meet up with my JC cliques after their A level exams 3 weeks later!

WOAH, 6 MORE MONTHS.

December is arriving, which means I can start applying for DAE to NP Business Studues in mid-dec! Pray hard I can successfully enrol into NP man, for the last resort I wish to happen is to get enrolled into NYP's Business Management! =X

Life will restart for the better when I enrol into Year 1 when I am 19... Indeed 2 years ahead of those freshies, well I shall be a veteran student then! 4.0 is the way to go! Not for the cert, but for the achievement! After that will be NS and most likely going into NIE to certify into a MOE teacher for authorized access to school posts! Admist of this period of time will be time to establish a business operation by then. First million @ 25, thst's my first simple primary goal, pretty easy to achieve if things are done the right way.

I shall study psychology and maximise my communication skills meanwhile where the pinnacle point is my goal by the end of these 6 months! January 2012 will be the official start for everything - MOE teaching, further malaysia cliques expansion, NP breaching, career broadcast and self-dev evolution! Another 1 month plus for me to enjoy life till then! The sad thing is that my best friend will be entering NS in Jan 10 and that's when I will be all alone and fully independent. Time to open newlink bridges to social networks! :)

Xenon

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Another birthday!

2011-11-12T12:40:00.001+08:00

Update! Yesteday was the first time I went to a chalet to celebrate my friend's birthday! Uhh, a first time for this old age of me... Well, better finish most of the fundamental "first times" exposure before I enter NP! If not I will become a laughing stock when I got there! Anyway...

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY HUIYU!! :D

Birthday girl was very happy yesterday! Almost jumping for joy most of the moments! Wow, kind of envy her for being able to organise her own birthday chalet at such a young age! Her presents were "overflowing" by all her friends that gave her. Hope you had a great day of your life yesterday and thanks for inviting us 09' 4E1 seniors! :)

Her NP SCL clique was indoubtably stormed with energy throughout the whole night when they shouted the NP birthday cheer for her! Well obviously, that's the gap between NP and NYP students huh? She really changed a lot from her transition in SGSS to NP, literally resembles her FB name Hui yu Likeasiaozhabo now. LOL! That's a good thing though!

Once again, happy sweet 17! :)

Xenon

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Nearing the last words

2011-11-10T02:36:00.001+08:00

Blogging is really getting to be an old trend. Now every media form of communication is through facebook... So Mark Zuckerberg please dont terminate facebook! After 2011 ends, I will officially stop blogging and leave it alone. Too much memories left behind in this blog, mostly bad ones though. Good ones are forever etched in my mind permanently. The old has gone and the new has come, Xenon's 2012 revolution commencing soon! A fresh start of life once again.

6 more months... Wow. What will I become by then? A good question to comtemplate indeed. Working in a job? Uh uh, aint a good idea for sure. Serving MOE intensively from Jan 2012 onwards is definitely wiser!

Speaking about friends... Great, not much remaining... Only the good and true friends stayed by my side. It's really interesting when you get to see the true colours of your friends. I would say 40% of my friends made in NYP were just fake friends trying to make use of you and leave you when they dont need you anymore.
This teaches me one thing:

"Quality triumps over quantity"

I should really cherish the current good truefriends around me and help them when they need aid. Definitely, the hearts of NP students are much more warm-hearting and caring than NYP students. People leaving in the west are much stronger than people living in the northern zone of singapore. I seriously wish to make a powerful clique of friends in NP! No more mess-ups like last time, time to love people and be generous to them!

"The more someone hates you, the more you love them"

Maybe I should start loving my ex-enemies, they are humans with feelings too after all. It's really a crass act to proclaim enemies around you at a age of 18! So here's the story, business studies most of the people will be 16-17 years old in Year 1 while I am 19. Which means I will be so-called a big brother to them, and I really need to behave like one when the time to grow up further really comes.

I will say my 2 years in NYP had been a fruitful one. Well, I will just take it as a warm up for poly life though. Encountered many kinds of scenarios and people. I inculcated much knowledge in myself and I really learnt a lot. Time to go out to the world and start helping people! All new starts in beginning of 2012!

Xenon

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Last resort successful

2011-11-07T13:21:00.001+08:00

Finally it's over, like really finally.
Everything completly wiped out.
Hopefully this was a right choice.
Everything was successful, that's the end.
Nothing to rejoice over though...

Xenon

Here comes the offense

2011-11-07T01:50:00.001+08:00

Oh is it? Do you know that dogs are the animals that whine the most? Since you love whining so much, why not be a bitch then? Absolutely cool name for you! Giving one whole load of crap bullshit excuses for your flaws in life and being a bitch. Well since you said all this. Sad for you then, born to be stupid and slow-witted in life.

Wow, guess you are a kind bitch huh? Nice philosophy for how you treat your fellow friends. Hmm, too bad I am the kind of person who makes use of friends for benefits and fooling around with them. I do fllirt around with girls and dump them when they are of no use to me. Oh I almost forgot to tell you this just in case you didnt know, I was fooling around with your life all the while man. Thought I was caring about you? Nahh, no man. To be honest, being able to criticise you, treating you like a fool was such a fun thing to do. And to see you slowly suffer I felt really great doing that. Well you are a bitch after all, that adds on to the fun.

Cool right now that you know what kind of an asshole am I, curse me for all you want bitch. I just love seeing people suffer, especially you. Struggling like a whimping dog while barking like a bitch really suits your life well. Well, I guess a retard like you wont understand anyway.

Good luck in life, bitch.

Rainy Days

2011-11-06T01:55:00.001+08:00

Recently those days just keep raining incessantly. Nice weather though, finally able to have some peaceful time calming myself down to think through things. As Im writing this post, the rain descends endlessly right infront of my sight... Each drop of rain felt like a flashback of pieces of memories - What I have done for my 2 years in poly, people around me, career, she, plans and eventful things that I have learnt.

Suddenly thought of her again. Those thoughts seems endlessly harassing me till now despite trying to put an end to it. Or is it should I really be more harsh before those thoughts can finally terminate?

I am tired. Hopefully It will soon be over.

Xenon

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Flow of a river stream

2011-11-05T01:11:00.001+08:00

Well done, glad that you know that I have changed. Changed for the worse, perhaps? So now you know that I am the kind of person who loves criticizing people, you better stay away from people like me.

Nevertheless, there's a reason behind every changes. What kind of a person I truly am, only those that really understands me have the right perception towards me. To tell you the truth, I have not changed at all. I am still the old me. Maybe you did not understand me at all in the past. Whatever you think of me now, none of my concern at all. Sorry to say this, but slow-minded people like you took such a long time to see through my true colours...

Since you think that way, isnt it great that I have turned into a worse person in your eyes? That should tell you that staying as far as possible from me is the best option for you. I have brought nothing but endless troubles to you. Besides, I wont want to know someone as useless and stupid as you, who brings me absolutely no benefits at all. Someone who whines only in times of troubles and scraps through their life engraving a long list of wrong decisions in their mind.
What a sad life for you, seriously.

How I wish you can hate me now.

Countdown!

2011-11-03T13:22:00.001+08:00

Great weather today, brings a chill down one's spine huh? Hah, another of my chimology practise again :)

Oh well ever since she got out of my thoughts I feel more and more happy in life each day, that a major boulder is finally lifted out from my mind! Wont be so foolish to ever self-suicide because of one person ever again. Perhaps my mei was right, she wasnt really worth that much of my time and she didnt really have such a great heart after all. I finally let go of the right things. Thanks mei for the awakening! I owed you one :)

Anyway, she's still the same as ever.
Blur.
Forgetful.
Invigilant.
Dependant.
Incapability in handling stress.
Whatever it is, no improvement.
Her promises turned to empty ones.
How has he been guiding her man?!

Nevertheless, Back to topic! Life's starting to look on the bright side, and an intensive tertiary journey countdown soon begins! :)

0M, 01D: Boat quay business meet!
0M, 02D: Games congregation!
0M, 04D: MOE Sec schools embark.
0M, 08D: Huiyu's chalet!
0M, 18D: NP 3D2N Red camp!
1M, 12D: NP DAE interview!
1M, 28D: MOE teacher assignments!
2M, 01D: NP Open house!
2M, 03D: Yangzheng pri teacher!
2M, 05D: New Sec 3 student!
6M, 13D: Birthday!
6M, 15D: Ngee Ann Revolution!

Shall literally saturate my schedule to the zenith so that I expose myself and gain as much experience as I can in preparation for NGEE ANN CAREER! I love my new laptop too, consisting of a higher end processor and definition now. Ever though its an acer brand. Acer sucks? Well, I shall prove that wrong! Thats all for now! Xenotec Empire on the march! Hail! :)

Xenon

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Moving forward in life

2011-10-27T21:11:00.001+08:00

Great day to blog today :)

Went to NP with bestfriend today... What a great weather to chill out today too. Hah! NP accepted my request to join the NP 3D2N Red camp 2011! Gonna make some real NP connections there. 6 more months, life will really get start to get interesting by then! Stay happy man.

There are things that I felt proud of myself to give up on and make greater decisions in life. There are things that because of this consequently made me lost some things worthy of me to miss too. Especially her. That's fate I guess? When you gain something, you lose something in exchange too. Self-Compensation is the only way to make up for the loss in my life I guess. I believe NP will bring me up much higher to another tier of life. Enrol in by hook or by crook.

I am starting to realise who I should really cherish and classify as priority, spending more time with them. The 5 of them, I really love them as my true companions and they have proven themselves worthy of my time. Thanks guys <3

Life will definitely spur up soon.
Hail! XENOTEC EMPIRE!

Xenon

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Commencement of a new journey!

2011-10-20T02:22:00.001+08:00

7 more months...
The coldness of solitudeness...
Will soon be all over...

The fears will come to past...
The sorrow cleansed out...
The friends redefined...
The career truly visualized...
The true essence of life...

And a new journey will begin...
Love and cherish those people...
Stay happy! :)

Xenon

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Dissonancy =(

2011-10-16T23:30:00.001+08:00

To lead a simple life? Or a sophisticated life?

Choosing the path to be part of a high-classed business journey, yet desiring to seek people of great simplicity around me... I have journeyed through a simple life till now - Getting into a polytechnic, making friends, waiting for days of my teenage life to pass... But yet I yearn to achieve a higher quality of life. A greater level of life? Making much more quality friends, finding an excellent girl, leading a rich man's life? Sometimes I dont even know I am seeking happiness or achievements... Choosing this path of business will means forfeiting all my past memories and my past friends, a total wipeout of the "Old ming hao's" memories for another dimension future. Urgh.

Xenon - An original name for a far-away planet. Used by me for describing far-sighted futuristic preficament. Bleh!

As for her... Tsk. Is it worth spending all these time on her? What am I even hoping to even gain out of this? She has found her guy and moved on, and yet I am acting like a domino-ed clinger... Bah! There are tons of awesome girls out there! Just like what they said - "Forfeiting the whole forest because of a tree". The thing is... I dont even know why I had make such a sacrificial decision involunteerly, I dont this to happen too duh! Got to be much more stronger and hard-hearted... XENON, NEVER EVER LET TRIVIAL SOFTNESS AFFECT YOU AGAIN. Great, Is this retribution for all these things i had done in the past?

7 months later, I will ensure I lead a glorious revolution in Ngee Ann Polytechnic with the next tier of refined Xenon.

I wont let my weakness make me fall again.
I wont let challenges obstruct me.
I wont let my softness affect me that easily again.

I will lead and strive.
I will gain support from everyone.
I will seek a great girl.
I will embrace a powerful career.
I will make significance in people's life.

Yes you can! Move on!
Signing out...

Xenon

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Critical start point

2011-10-04T20:27:00.001+08:00

Finally... After waiting for so long... Yesteday during her birthday they two have become an item! Great, this will mark the commencement of the judgmental parody which was long awaited... Many people have predicted the same outcome as me, let's see how fast the outcome takes to happen... We shall sit back relax and enjoy the show. Thank you guys for the support anyway :)

Meanwhile, there are much more important issues to resolve as of now. It will be definitely wise to stop meeting her for the time being. First, got to optimise usage of these 8 months with beneficial tasks and jobs. Secondly, networking shall be utilised in the various institutions as usual. Thirdly, infiltrate ngee ann polytechnic. Lastly, enrol into the best business course.

Nyp is in a severe mess now, it is wise to stay out of the school as early as possible. The school even went bankrupt recently, woah =O

Ngee ann business studies enrolment will mark the beginning of a beautiful journey. The gap between nyp and np is negligible... The quality of people, leadership, infrastructure, class, opportunities, events and bindings... Ngee ann is seriously damn awesome~ <3

Alright xenon, time to get cracking!
Hail Ngee ann! =D

Xenon

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Yes! A right mindset!

2011-10-02T22:03:00.001+08:00

Finally 3 days of hectic camp has ended! Really really very tired...TTM! Great experience though, met loads of awesome people and charismatic leaders from various institutions! Especially my group's ngee ann poly clique... They are simply awesome... Hail NP! <3

This camp's interaction with various institutions convinced me that my decision to enter NP was a right one. Yes yes! Being able to manipulate various institutions' students was indeed that I have stepped up to another level of leadership! I aspire to be one of ngee ann's pillar of leaders next year, and that will be my next level of development achievements!

8 months of break time is indeed long and much things can be done to upgrade myself. Will most probably work, network with NP students and do much personal development to optimise this time of freedom!

The next battle has arrived, time to confront those challenges ahead! KEEP TELLING YOURSELF - "YES YOU CAN!"

Xenon

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Quarrels?

2011-09-29T14:01:00.002+08:00

Gosh, I sort of quarrelled with her again yesterday... That's our medium of communication? I am passively aftering you in my heart and yet all these quarrelling to make your impression towards me fluctuate, was it even necessary?

Look man, Its not that I LOVE quarrelling with you...But its just that using harsh tones can only make you so-called "wake up" from your weaknesses. Everytime when I speak to you nicely compared to a harsh one, you end up got less alerted and tentatively take it slowly than when I am harsh to you. Im sorry that whatever I quarrel with you always end up I demoralised you, but I believe its the only way to alert your weaknesses because I realised NO ONE out there is scolding you. And so here I am to do the "bad guy's" job to direct you into the correct path for your own good. It's a way of showing concern isnt it, even though it was a harsh one?

Of course when you finally walk onto the right path of life and get rid of your bad habits, I wont be scolding you when unnecessary aye? I can tell that sometimes you are unhappy with my naggyness and disputes with you, but come'mon if it can agitate you to improve for the better in exchange for you feeling unhappy with me, it's worth it right? :)
Heys it's precisely because I love you and care about you that's why im doing all the scolding... My god, im aftering you passively and do I even need to necessarily make you get unhappy with me when I am supposed to make your impression with me better and better each day, such that you will change your mind one day?

But all I want to let you know is that im showing my WORSE side to you. And which in other words means that if we were to get into a relationship, this is the worse side of me! I am serious! I wont be like the other guys who are aftering you or how your ex boyfriends when they are aftering you they show their best side to you initially and then after that, their petformance decrease each day until you all have to quarrel one day and finally break off. instead, here I am showing my worse side to you first then later on each day I show better and better performance as a ... Boyfriend or whatever that you call it. Damn, it hurts each time when I have to scold you do you know that? I dont enjoy scolding you at all! You are someone who I love, why would I want to upset or hurt you? ...

Alright thats all for now, time to resume gym and train up! :)
Signing off...

Xenon Tan

Progressing to the next level of life. YES, I CAN!

2011-09-25T17:56:00.003+08:00

I am back! :)

Finally things are settled between me and her! That feeling of great relief from sorrow and anxiety is inexplicable... Even though we still cant be together yet, but ultimately I believe one day we will. This men's instinct of mine prediction 9 out of 10 always become reality. Waiting for that feeling to become reality... Be it weeks, months or years I believe it is definitely worth the waiting for a lovely girl like her. Damn, I realised the power of love can motivate and change me so much without me realising it...

Waiting for a girl be it how long it takes? Xenon doing that? If words of this spread around to everyone, I believe 9 out of 10 people will say I am seriously nuts. But seriously! There's really nothing wrong with falling in love! It just comes naturally! I will really wait till the day when you say the sentence - "I accept you". To be together with you, It will be Xenon's bliss and honor in this lifetime.

Time to face reality has come though. I have 3 paths to choose for the next stage of life though...

- Ngee ann Polytechnic Diploma in Business Studies

- SIM Diploma in Management studies

- National service

Seriously, I cant bear to leave those reality memories that I have left in NYP. The friends, hardship, feelings, life and encounters. During this 2 years, I realised I have really grown up a lot and diversified into a much higher quality of life. Most importantly, the only one I truely loved and cherished in NYP is her. To leave NYP means that I wont be able to see her that often and engage in events together with her. It ever almost stopped me from leaving NYP because I really cant bear to leave her. She may appear just like an ordinary girl, but the impact and her importance she brought on me is really, really, really....Precious.

Nevertheless, I still have to leave and enter another world of higher dimension so as to improve myself constantly and seek to achieve my career goals in life. After leaving NYP, I swear that I seriously will miss those encounter memories with her in NYP. I ever made a promise to myself before - "Cherish, protect and guide her in life". I will keep on improving myself and attain achievements in life so as to share them with her. I will wait for her till that day comes, and I will bring her along to travel this beautiful journey with me. The only one.

Hmm...Sometimes I really wonder how important am I to her. Seriously, until now I still dont really know the answer even though she told me before. Because the way she treats me in real life and what she said in that letter...It doesnt complements at all. Anyway, I guess it doesnt matters though right? Well... Her gullibility has literally veiled her true feelings from me. It might be mushy to say this...But because of her blurness, she is really cute at times. I never ever felt so comfortable and secured with a person like this before, someone who can place my 100% trust in her without doubts. I only have 2 person I truely trusted in my life... One is Senthil, one is her.

She do have feelings for that guy though... Seriously, It hurts terribly when I learn about that and have to see them progressing to getting closer each day. Judging from things at this rate, they have a high change of getting together. Love can be just so sacrificial at times... Even though that feeling I have towards her is inexplicable, experiencing great pain in my heart in exchange for wishing her to be happy in life...It is definitely worth it.

Alright I shall end here for now. Keep telling myself: "Yes, you can!"
Signing off...

Xenon Tan.

Heart totally shattered, my first love.

2011-09-19T01:51:00.019+08:00

Today was my first time tearing in front of a girl...
Today was my first time hugging someone that I truely loved...
Today was my most hurtful moment...
Today was my last time meeting her...
I decided to forget her.
It was the best solution for us
I finally experienced what true love was.
It was to care, guide and protect that one and only girl from everything at all cost,
Be it you are together with her or not...
I swear I never felt so painful in my 18 years life before.
I realised that I was already even prepared to sacrifice everything for her happiness.
Many teenagers out there attached claim they went through love before
But trivial matters can actually easily break those couples apart...
And that is teenagers' so-called true love?
How can this be called true love?!
No one can understand how I feel now at all...
For someone I truely love but cant be together with her...
I remember telling her that option 2 was to forget her and never see her again...

But I couldnt do it...
Each time I tried forgetting her I end up remembering her even more...
Just to feel more and more hurt each day...
My heart was so painful today that I have to grab hold of my chest to
alleviate the pain...
I still wish to see her...
I still want to do things for her...
Yet at the same time I cant see her...
I really love her a lot...
The only things I could do from now on was to protect her from problems
without her knowing in low profile...
One thing I really felt angry though about was her judgmental perspectives.
She perceived me as a "brother" only to her...
Which she said that it was impossible for us to be together...
Are feelings towards a guy really that important?!
For your past 3 ex-boyfriends that you had feelings for...
Was your judgemental feelings about them right in the end?
The first and second guy dumped you...
The third guy controlled you...
If your feelings were accurate that you feel its important in a relationship,
why would you end up having 3 WRONG ex-boyfriends?!
DId you got what you expected from them in the end? A long term love?
You have no feelings for me now that i understand.
But because of a "brother perspective" that stops you from considering me.
All I wished for was just that.....Little chance to be with you and prove myself.
But instead, you gave those chances to your 3 ex-boyfriends and they
disappointed you in the end...
Why even these horrible guys had a chance but not me?!
How I wished I was anyone of them at that point of time of your life to have a
real chance to show my true love as a boyfriend towards you,
Just that little chance...
To be with you and ONE chance to give me some time to adapt your feelings
towards even though I understand you dont have feelings for me now...
Isnt' true love supposed to be nurtured instead of liking a guy through your heart feelings prediction towards that guy?

It was totally my own mistake that I did things to let you perceive me as a "brother" instead as "someone chasing after you". Here are the few predestined possibilities that made you perceived me as a "brother" to you:

- Perhaps our 6 months age gap really matters to you? Which makes you forever perceive me as a junior who is "younger" than you?

- I always tease and sometimes "act childish" towards you, no doubt you see me as a "brother" instead of "someone chasing after you". I may be acting childish on the surface, but in my heart I have been always serious about you.

- I never been through any relationships before, such that you feel insecure and a lack of sense of security from me?

Or if not, there could be some other possibilities too...

You told me one of my weaknesses was that I am too influenced with girls topic etc that made you felt uncomfortable... It was absolutely right if this was a factor to making you lose confidence in me too. Indeed I did talk to those guys about girls' topic...

But that's a boy's topic of course we do talk about it... No doubt that you may have the mindset that I am a flirtacious guy in your mind... But well, whats the point of saying all this now anyway... Its too late... I do have really a lot to tell you face to face... Though what I said when I confessed to you was in summarized content... A pity I cant talk to you like how we used to did in the past anymore... The laughters, problems, guidances, help, teasings... I really miss those days, no one can ever substitude you in those memories... Why cant we just have a chance to be together... Is it really such a demanding request? My only wish was to be that guy by your side... To care, guide, help, love, improve, share and trust you... And yet Im tearing now while typing as I am reminiscencing about those memories...

(A true life story of how a girl changed my everything)

More than a year ago, I was enrolled to Nanyang Polytechnic DET Diploma Year 1.
Everything was really a fresh start.
However, my arrogance and retarded characteristics later slowly offended many people and became very unwelcomed by most people and my classmates.
Slowly, I fall into the trend of life downfall...
I slowly hated school, people and everything...
I became anti-social, didnt trust anyone and developed vengeance...
My life was like....Really crap.

Soon 2 months later, I coincidentally came across this email on joining mentoring club. I joined the cca because of only one reason - CCA points. On this first day of orientation, I was really scared to socialize with anyone. That's when I started knewing this girl... My first impression of her was that she was just an average looking, tomboyish but friendly ordinary girl. I remember playing table tennis with her weekly as I wanted to play too that time. I slowly came to know of her as a friend...Just really a new normal friend. We chatted oftently through smses and msn, I slowly knew her better. Somehow later, she told me that I was very "Alone" and anti-social, that I should socialise much more outside. At that point of time, she was the first person to bring me exploring on the start of my journey. She brought me to meet her friends and outings... Indeed initially, me an immature 17 year old guy, created a lot of crap troubles for her... But she did not judge me for who I am at all. Everyone either dislike, ignore or hated me for my really unwelcoming personality... But she, continued encouraging me to socialize more and put in really some effort just to get me interacting with people. Thats when I started to get slightly closer to her and interacted more. She made me join school events, activities and gatherings... Slowly, my "anti-socialness" alleviates and got a little more lively. I was a little more happy man that point of time.

I liked her at that point of time but she was attached.

Everything remained the same until one event happened that became part of a turning point for my life. There was this incident when I offended her boyfriend at that point of time and he got really unhappy with me. Being sandwiched between me and her bf's dispute, she felt really helpless and even cried. The matter was brought to a resolution when she have to keep a distance away from me because of her bf's unhappiness and they even quarrelled. Being a naive and stubborn person at that time, I thought she was a selfish person and in a impulse of short-temper, I scolded her much and made her really disappointed with me. A few weeks later, I came to learn the truth that she actually defended me by sacrificing herself so as not to let her bf gave troubles to me and promised that she would keep a distance away from me as long as her bf did not give me any troubles. I got very touched at that point of time and I even accused her wrongly, which made her very angry and disappointed with me later on. Our friendship became distant after that incident.

Nevertheless, she taught me life theories and how to learn from my mistakes and all that. I can still remember one life theory sentence she taught me: "Dont simply assume things". Despite me giving her disappointment and loads and loads of trouble, she continued treating me fairly as how she treated the other friends. Almost all of my friends would not have bothered to spend time with me, especially with a "worthless" person like me at that time. She made me realised that my characteristics tuned for the better and was impressed by the way she help people without judging them for who they are, especially when she is a girl and most girls wont have bothered spending time doing this. I can even still remember the first time when she treated me to eat sushi for the first time (Never tried) and cheered me up a lot. At times, she would spend time sitting down with me just to make the effort to comfort and help me with problems. I started getting attracted by her. However later on, I disappointed her again by giving her another major trouble and our friendship got really negligible.

We did not meet or talk for months, during this period of time I thinked through a lot on my personal development and attitude problems. I told myself that I will set her as a benchmark and learn from her characterisitcs. It was because of all the impacts she made on my life, she made me realised a lot of beautiful things in life. During those months, I self-interacted much thanks to after she helped me to start interacting in activities. I forced myself to undergo high exposures to constantly improve myself for example, interacting with people of higher ages than me such as ministers and uni students. Somehow fate brought us to meet together again in a few coincidental events later on even though at that point of time we were still in a poor friendship situation. She brought me to join events such as YOG dance, Chingay dance, Sungei Buloh Guides Training, Samsung Torch etc. Other than that, she also advised me on my clothes fashion change and thats when I started to change the clothes I wore to the better.

We slowly met more oftently again and my life became more interesting as time passes compared to the mundane past. At this point of time, I was already a much more improved version of Ming Hao compared to the past. After a few months, she and her boyfriend broke up. Fate then brought me on much occasions to meet her more later on and instead this time round, I helped her with problems. It made us slowly became closer and closer. At that time, I started to think through everything about her and noticed her more. She was the girl that stood by my side at my worst part of my life a year ago and guided me to breakthrough from all those life challenges. She became a very important historic character etched in my memories and heart.

Many guys liked her and started chasing after her. When I knew that at that point of time, I started to felt nervous and asked myself why I felt that way. It was then I realised that I had really fell in love with her after a few incidents we went through. I told myself that I would repay her and take care of her in life, but didnt really knew I have already fell so much in love with her till "that" extend. The impact that she made in my life has created a "scar love memory" that no one can ever substitude. Its the same logic as outside no 1 man and 1 woman can ever replace your biological parents no matter how good they are and like them a lot. A fact is forever a fact. She was the one meant for me and no matter how good other girls were, she will always be that number 1 girl in my heart whenever I thinked about what I am today because of her. Without her, I would have probably be the same as the terrible past me off or worse. She has become a savior that I truely love and will cherish for the rest of my life. She was the girl that steped into my past life and changed everything of me into another better person. The one and only girl that made it happened and will always be first ranked girl in my life. That fact will never ever change. I started working real hard intensively to earn money so that I could provide her a smooth life if i were to chase after her.

Recently I even confessed to her.
I was really happy when I finally said out my feelings to her after more than 1 year. It was my happiest day of my life till now, She made all this happened. I felt really blessed and mentally prepared to be together. However her reply was... She only sees me as a "brother"... I swear that feeling of "most happy to most sorrowful" moment will never ever be forgotten... I could actually cried for her, just for her... I have already given my whole heart to her that I cant control my feelings now... She said she didnt had feelings towards me... Really cant give a chance to nurture and let time tell? Its not about false hope, but its about proving that I can make your life more beautiful. And that, my heart will always belong to you. I may be younger than you by a few months, but I am really confident of being the man of your life that I am willing to change for the better each day for you. Though you still dont fully understand the price I am willing to pay for you... No matter what you become, you will forever be that beautiful origin part of my life.

Your simplicity makes me feel comfortable and secured with you,
Your appearance may be average looking but you have the nicest inner beauty in my heart,
Your blurness and decency will forever be what I love about you,
Your heart will always be as pure as gold to me,
Your name will forever be etched in my heart and life, till the day I die.

If I really must sacrifice my life happiness for your happiness, I am willing to do it. I will never ever forget you, I am prepared to withstand the most painful memories. I truly love you that I am wiliing to do anything for you. Thank you for everything.

NANOTEC - Digital Games...Time to Focus!

2011-05-08T12:22:00.009+08:00

(COMING SOON 2011!)

NANOTEC Members!

Ng Gau Wei, Senthil Kumar, Benjamin Pang

Lim Jing Ze, Goh Jun Fa, Ivan Soh

Brandon Yeo, Tan Ming Hao (Me^^), Sylvester Ang

13/9/2010 (Updates for past 12 days)

2010-09-13T14:40:00.004+08:00

For the past 12 days...
My group did the same thing consecutively..

From 3/9 - 13/9 (Ming Hao)
I supervised the progress of my team members progress...
Each individual with their own tasks to do...
I coded the main menu and designed it with colors...
Came up with formulas for the conditions...
Created the storyline of Battlemines...
And now coding the map selection system of the game...
Which i will compile everything together in the end...
Using pointers and structures where possible...

From 1/9 - 13/9 (Bing Yao)
Created the prototypes of the maps using arrays...
Coded the movement of the player on the board...
Where he created the restrictions of player on the game map...
Devised the health system for the player...
Created the time limit system of the game...

From 1/9 - 13/9 (Ivan Soh)
Consistently research on how to implement music and sound effects...
Set the conditions for the grids of the game maps...
Such as effects on the player for stepping on different grids on the map...
He also implemented the alarm sounds that triggers off on each grid...

From 1/9-13/9 (Jun Wei)
Created all the maps of the game and code all the colors in it...
Implemented the different colors on each map grids...
Such as colors for event, safe, danger and damage grids...
And now he is devising the scoring system of the game...
Where he will devise a formula for the scoring system...

FInally things are settled...

2010-08-20T14:45:00.002+08:00

After 12 days of apocalypse...
Finally things are settled...
100% solved...
Once again...
Sorry Jiecheng, Jun Han and Jie for all those problems...
Lols i just realised that they three are triple JJJ :D
Hopefully we all learned something from it...
There were good and bad consequences though...

The good side was that i learned many things from this...
Not to think too much and get too sensitive...
Making assumptions of other people...
And to be more mature too...
Hopefully that they are more tenacious too now...
Wish I will not repeat my mistakes again...
And change my attitude, character and thinking...
Making more people to find me acceptable...
Cherish those friends and mentors around you...
I also realised the good sides of some caring mentors too...
Thank you kind souls!
They are...
Timothy, Joey, Samantha, Ujun, Weide and Rebecca...
And also two of my friends, Mei xuan and Sebastian...

However, everything comes with a price too...
There were definitely much aftermath damaging consequences...
Firstly, jie sorry for hurting you so much and making you cried...
And JH too...
For causing so much trouble between you two...
After this...
I am sure i and jie's friendship will be damaged somehow...
And not to be as close as ever again...
But well its ok...
At least i didnt lose her as a friend or become enemies...
As for JH and Jie cheng...
I don't know whether we will ever meet again...

Hahas enough of all these pessimistic stuff...
Tommorow will be samantha's birthday...
We are giving her a surprise somehow...
Hopefully mentoring club will be fun tommorow!
And mentors go out for an outing tommorow...
Weide must take pictures if he goes :DD
Signing off here...
Bye!!!

A period of apocalypse

2010-08-17T17:19:00.005+08:00

What have i done this few days?
I just keep making things worse and worse...
I felt as if some evil possessed me...
I couldn't control my emotions...
I can't believe what i did...

I thought she was a hypocrite...
And i can't believe i said that to her...
What have i done???
I misunderstood her excessively...
Things are now indeed a pandemonium...
Why did i do that???
I just found out...
I misunderstood her right from the very beginning...
And it just got deeper each day...
Things were not the way i thought...
I accused her of a "hypocrite"???
I must be really mad to have said that...
I can't imagine how she felt when she knew that...
If her best friend didnt say out the truth yesteday...
I would still had hated her and thought she was a hypocrite!
Damn! I misunderstood her so much!
Despite how she defended me and all that...
This is what i repaid her?!?
I can't imagine how mad she got at me...
I really can't...
Because of this...
Many people are going to hate me again...
Her friends...
Her boyfriend...
Her clique...
Those mentors by her side...
Really...
I keep making enemies...
Waves of mistakes and troubles just keep coming...

I feel so useless all the time...
I am such a heartless person...
I did so many evil things...
Why can't i just be a normal person...
Doing things that are acceptable to people?
Why must i always make others hate me?
Why?!?
I felt that i am not fit to be a mentor...
I thought of quitting mentoring club...
I told samantha that a lot of times...
But she persuaded me to stay...
I really hate myself now...
What have i done?!?
Is there something wrong with me...
She did so many things for me...
And times again and again i just keep accusing her...
An act that is unforgivable...
Why did i said something so heartless?!?
If only time could be reversed...
How i wish none of this has happened...
Commiting such monsterous and evil acts...
I keep hurting those that helped me...
Misunderstanding them as cunning and "fake" people...
Damn! Whats wrong with me?!?
Those are really unrepentable sins...

Anyway thanks jie cheng for telling me what happened...
I even misunderstood you too...
When i knew how she defended me right from the start...
My mind was in a blank...
I cried for a moment...
Why was she so foolish?
She should had told me what happened exactly...
But she took up the whole responsiblity by herself...
And told me everything was fine the next day...
But in fact...
They quarrelled many times...
She didn't want me to worry over it...
She was such a nice girl...
She kept defending me and didnt want to hurt both parties...
But i thought for the sake of saving herself...
She did smth else and thought she was the same as others...
Who just do things for the sake of saving themselves...
And accused her of being a hypocrite...
I misunderstood her so much...
I said that to her so heartlessly...
Just how deep did i hurt her with those acts?
I just can't stop thinking of it now...
What i did and all that...
It ponders on my mind every second...
I don't even know how should i face her now...
She must really hate me a lot now...

I really gotta do alot of self-reflection now...
And make up for my sins...
Its raining heavily now...
I felt even more emo...
Argh!!! Minghao can you just stop thinking too much!?!
多一事不如少一事...
All i beg for now is that everything's damage is minimal...
I hope that she was not so hurt...
JUST FOR THE SAKE OF WHAT I DID!
Its not worth seriously...
Over such a hopeless person like me...
Please...
I pray that everything is fine
Just let her forget everything...
The pain...
The accusation...
Thanks...

Troubles and enlightenment...

2010-08-14T21:34:00.010+08:00

Recently many things happened...
It is a indeed a period of darkness...
One mentor, samantha said that when the cloudy sky is over...
Sunshine will come next...
Thank you samantha! I felt better!

I guess i learnt much in mentoring club...
The first time i joined it, i thought it wasn't the cca for me...
But as time passes...
I felt that i have really learned many values in this cca...
I used to be very oblivious, bad-tempered and nonsentic...
But mentoring club made me calmed myself down...
Because you learn many experiences from the mentors...
To me, it brought much life to me but also much misery to me...

It brought life to me because the mentors there are nice...
When i am there, i really feel that i belong there...
I feel very comfortable with the mentors...
They are all matured, friendly, kind and helpful...
I made many new and close friends there...
Most of them were trustworthy...
You do not have to worry about sharing problems with them...
Such that they will take it seriously and help you...
Some of them are...
Weide, Samantha, Audrey, Timothy, Joey, Shawn, Weijie,
Syafiqah, Shermaine, Sky...
Thank you guys!
However, some mentors still quitted eventually...
Each with their own problems and reasons...

Regarding misery...
Sighs many things happened...
She brought most happiness but also most misery to me...
When i really found someone that i can trust...
Somethings just have to happen...
I guess this is really fate...
A small fire became a big fire...
And now its like an inferno...
Really very hard to extinguish it...
Within one month...
So many things happened...
3 parties were affected...

And drifted me and them apart...

Even the aftermath...

Her best friend just have to say all this to her...=.=

I must really "thank" him a lot...

Science centre outing...

2010-08-04T13:11:00.003+08:00

Recently been to Science centre with some mentors...
Weide, Audrey, Shawn and Gilbert...
The mentor polo tee we are wearing now is not cool enough...
Must upgrade and upsize!
Here are some photos i have uploaded...
Sorry has been busy recently...XD

Epic one

The light behind is so flouroscent!

Omg Do-reh-me-far stairs here..!!

Nice sky! So clear and blue!

Most loyal mentors (Audrey missing XD)

YOG Samsung human torch

2010-07-14T16:09:00.012+08:00

Finally here to update my blog again...
Sorry has been busy recently...
So occupied with YOG events!
LOLS!
Here's some photos taken during the YOG Samsung human torch...
Thanks you mentors, it was fun with you guys...
You all rox! XD

Well anyway YOG SHT was fun...
Worth the 1 CCA point...
Quite busy now...

Will be back soon!

Bye~~~

Just another day...

2010-07-14T16:09:00.004+08:00

Sorry people who read my blog...
Always never update my blog...
Will try to update more now...

2 days ago...
As usual, comm skills just wait for Ms chua to tok the same thing about ICA 2...
Havnt finish it...
Tommorrow going to film the video with sebastian...
Lol have to appear on camera again...
After comm skills ended at 1.50pm then waited 1.16667 hours for audrey till 3 pm...
Then played table tennis with her...
At first thought she very weak...
Then the way she hit the ball so hard freaked me out because i have to run here run there around the sports hall to retrieve the ball...
Tats why fell sick on that day...
Nvm, next monday i make sure its her turn to run here run there...
But she quite good in table tennis, underestimated a girl!
Never judge a book by its covers!
Played till 6pm then went to eat dinner together with her...

1 day ago...
Every tuesday is always the same...
Math + C++ lecture from 10.10am-1pm...
Lols so disappointed Mr reghu never give us test...
I anticipated the paper so much!!!
Then from 3-6pm was visual arts...
Very long...
Tat day was praying that it ends faster so can go YOG dance...
Drank 3 litres of water...(Super hydrated after that...)
Then at 6pm went for YOG and rendezvous with Mentoring club people...
Learned new dance...
Sambal then now plus Hip Hop dance...
Lucky i drank 3 litres of water...
If not i dunno how to survive the dance because its so fast and tiring!
Can see alot of people like gonna collapse anytime...
After that at 9 plus walked with audrey all the way to AMK for dinner from NYP...(SO FAR!)
11 plus at night then go home...
And reached home at 12 plus midnight...

Today...
Dunno what to say...
Can u imagine today school was from 9.00-9.30 pm only for math!
Seriously come school because of 30mins LMAOROTFLOL!
Social ettique for GS even worse...
Its suppose to start at 12pm...
Then cos alot of people never attend it from my class then purposely go abit later...
Tapped my card for attendance at 12.15pm outside LTM1...
Then see inside the people so saturated such that people have to sit along the stairs of the lecture hall and so many people cannot sit down and have to stand behind and listen...
Hence, i walked out go back level 6 concept lab waste time again...
12.40pm go back...
LOL when i went in...
They said "If u all have nth to ask,you may go now."
And the lecture ended...
Lols i come in 1 min then go out...
So random de...
Lols nevermind...
Then was with timothy from 1-3pm liddat in his lab slacking...
So boring today!
Currently is 4.33pm and i am inside the lab alone...
Dunno what to do...
Ok end here then...
Bye!

Reminiscene and commencement of a new blog post

2010-06-08T13:57:00.009+08:00

Hi everyone i am finally back after so so so so so long of time...
Sorry i was very very very very occupied with "O" levels and hectic stuff...

Right firstly, disclosement of "O" Level results...

L1R4 - 12
L1R5 - 16

English - B4
Chinese - C6
E Maths - A2
A Maths - A2
Pure Chemistry - B3
Physics and Biology - A2
Combined Humanities - B3

Secondly, just updating some of the current information...
I am now studying in NYP...
Diploma in Digital Entertainment and Technology (DET Games)...
Its a very fun but requires insane maths knowledge course...
Same course as Brandon and Sylvester from my class, 4E1...
My class is simply called DET 03...
Anyway, 4E1 is now separated into different schools..
So ya missed SGSS a lot...
And...
I hate the new Principal in my secondary school...MR.NG!!!
He disallows ex-students to enter the school compound!!!
What a bizzarre principal...

Well...
Definitely between poly and seondary school...
Poly rox 100 times better than secondary school...
But secondary school friends are 100 times better than poly friends...
Contradicting right?
I am gonna make this post a long one since its been decades i updated my blog...

In my course for semestral 1 we have 6 modules...
They are...

Communication skills 1...
Maths 1...
C++ Programming...
Web development...
Digital Entertainement systems (DES)...
Visual art techniques...

General study is Public speaking and Social ettique...

Communication skills is cool since we just learn how to present overselves...
And we do not have much homework for this module...
Maths is my favourite module since its very easy for me...
Because i love maths!!!
C++ Programming is the hardest module...
Because its our main modules and we have to learn insane programming...
Almost all people hates this module and are weak at it...
Web development too is as hard as C++ programming but slightly easier...
Digital Entertainment Systems or DES is the most boring module...
Because the lecturer for this course is monotonous in his speaking during lectures...
Usually students just sleep or do their own stuff...
Visual Art techniques is the most irritating module!!! X.X
Because we are bad at drawing and yet we have to design things!!!
Public speaking and Social ettique are my favourite times...
Because i love to talk!!! ^^
Well thats all for my school subjects...

Now i just update some of my remiscence photos in primary and secondary school...

Ok...I shall end here...

Next time then blog...

Thank you my blog visitors! ^^

Final Fantasy XIII PS3 Game Trailer

2009-06-11T12:01:00.006+08:00

Hope to play this game..XD

"Final Fantasy XIV (14)" is coming out soon..

But its on PS3,Xbox 360..And online de..

School Reopen then update..

Bye for now..!!

4E1 Minghao,Gau wei,Senthil & Jing Ze News

2009-04-01T16:11:00.003+08:00

This is my group's english project.."Bloomberg's World"

Enjoy..First long video uploaded in Youtube..

Have something to say..

2009-03-25T16:42:00.003+08:00

Today had lessons normally..
First lesson as usual Maths..
Mr oei proceed on to chapter 17..
It was quite easy to understand but hard to do..
Just some chain rules..Trigonometry..

Then was English..
Mrs Tan did not come..
So do English TYS ..
Completed the summary..
It was like so ambiguous..!!
After assiduous scrupulous reading..
Then only understand abit..

Next was Biology..
Today the class was like so high when mrs tay teach chapter 10..
Which was Sexual reproduction..
The class was like sooooo high..
Dunno why also..
Coz i was also high..
Something wrong already..

Then recess eat with bp,SPA,Gau wei,Chen wei and navan..
Ate nasi briyani..
After recess was MT..
Quite boring..
So sat with gau wei..
Read newspaper..

Then was Chem..
Here's the problem..
Ms mok somehow barge in to the classroom..
Then admonished me for saying things to 3E1..
Dunno who go tell her..
So horrible that person..
Pandemonium..!!
But i act innocent..
So as to avoid her inquisition..!!
After chem i show her the "LPG cylinder" photo..
She was like so shocked and asked me where i got that..
Actually its the gas label behind 107 coffeeshop..
Didn't know LPG is a gas company..
Hahaz..

Then last lesson was PCME..
Mrs Tay went through some birth control presentaion..
Then the class even more HIGH then bio lesson.
Dunno why again..
So end here..
Bye..
(Got time must post the LPG photo)

Comments on Spammers

2009-03-02T16:11:00.003+08:00

Today when i access my blog..

Only to saw spammer tags..
Why so unscrupulous?
Why so discreditable?
Why so asphyxiating?
Why so abominant?
Why so treacherous?
Who is it?
Nvm..
I had blocked that person's IP..
Now back to the monotonous routine..

(Firstly:Reply to tags)

>Benedict:Omg,ms mok really emphasizes that?
(Compre Skills:Note the words in italic)

>Valerie:Hey long time no see..Tot u forgot me le..The results out le..

(SGSS vs Pierce---3-2)
(SGSS vs Mayflower---1-4)
(SGSS vs AMK---0-5)
(SGSS vs SJI---0-5)
Conclusion:We lost in South -Zone....

>bp:Yups treacherous spammers..Lolz..>>
>Huiyu:I know ure shocked..very ps..spammers acts of discredit..

Titration day of Apocalypse..

2009-02-20T14:10:00.011+08:00

I have deleted the SPA post le..
Ms Mok say not suppose to post about it..
Bp and benedict deleted it le..
So i also delete it..
Anyway..

I need to get A1 for Chemistry..
Since i mentioned Chemistry..
i might as well set my targets now..
those who saw this be my witnesses..

English---B3
Chinese---C6
A Maths---A1
E Maths---A1
P.Chemistry---A1
Combined humanties---A1
Combined Science---A1

All of u be my witnesses ok?
Bye for now..
Yeah..!!

Before this..

Here's some pictures of NYJC..

i'm aiming for this JC..!!

Looks futuristic..!!

Resplandant-looking and Fluroscent designs..

Cool in every sense..!!

Commodious and cozy environment

Clean Chemistry Labs..

Upload of South-Zone TT Photos

2009-02-17T16:38:00.005+08:00

South-Zone Table Tennis

2009-02-10T15:55:00.002+08:00

The results for Table Tennis..
We LOST..!!
Lost to SJI 0-5..
Lost to AMKSS 0-5..
Crushing defeated us..!!
Basketball and Table Tennis lose le..
GAME OVER..!!

Recently renewed my tagbox..
Coz i accidentally banned many ppl..!!
Than have to restart everything..
Karyin and Meixuan coming this thursday to SGSS..
For GB instructor drill..
So far nothing to tag..
So sorry..
Bye for now..

South-Zone Table Tennis 2009

2009-02-05T16:00:00.008+08:00

On Monday 2/2/2009..
It was the first day of SZ-TT competition..
Released from school early at 12pm..
Warmed up at hall till 1pm with members..
Left at 1pm and took a coach to Pierce Sec..
Reached there at about 1.30pm..
MFS,RI,ACS,AMKSS,GESS,CDS,SJI,CHS etc were there..
C Division played first with SJI at 2pm..
The results was "thrashed" by Pierce by 0-5..!!
B Division played with Pierce sec at 3.30pm..

We WON them by 3-2..!!
There were 5 rounds..
3 singles 2 doubles..
The first singles was played by Chin you (Captain)..
He thrashed the opponent..
The first doubles was played by me & Darien..
At first very nervous..
Coz they appeared strong..
But in the end..

We defeated them--through "Luck"..!!

The second singles was played by Ruzaini..
He lost to them..
So the score was now 2-1(SGSS vs PSS)..
The second doubles was played by Jing Ze & Mirza..
But they lost to the opponents..
The score was now 2-2..
The atmosphere was now tense..
Finally the last singles,played by Uddam..
He won the opponent..
And finally our school won..!!
(Through very very very lucky..)

On Wednesday 4/2/2009..
It was the second day of the SZ-TT competition..
Same,released from school early at 12pm..
Warmed up at hall till 1pm with members..
Left at 1pm and took a coach to Pierce Sec..
Reached there at about 1.30pm..
MFS,RI,ACS,AMKSS,GESS,CDS,SJI,CHS etc were there..
C Division played first with Catholic high at 2pm..
The results was "thrashed" by CHS by 0-5..!!
B Division played with MFS at 3.30pm..

We LOST them by 1-4..!!
There were 5 rounds..
3 singles 2 doubles..
The first singles was played by Uddam..
At first he was on a winning streak..
But eventually..
He lost to the opponent..
The score was now 0-1(SGSS vs MFS)
The first doubles was played by me & Darien..
Damn nervous coz the first match SGS lost le..!!
And they were stronger than Pierce..
But in the end..
We defeated them--through "Luck" again..!!
Then the score is now 1-1..
The second singles was played by Jing Ze..
During the match..
For every point they scored..
The Mayflower players kept shouting "SHA"..!!
He lost to them..
Coz he was too angry and distracted with MF players..!!
So the score was now 1-2(SGSS vs PSS)..
The second doubles was played by Ruzaini & Mirza..
But they lost to the opponents..
The results was now 1-3..
We were demoralised coz we lost..!!
but we continued our UNITY..!!
Finally the last singles,played by Chin you(Captain)..
He lost the opponent..
Everyone damn sad..
The final score is 1-4..!!
And at last our school lost..!!
(Through very very very suay..)

Next Monday we will fight against SJI and AMKSS..!!
Although chances are low against them..
We will perservere till the end..!!
To support us,pls leave a tag of support here..!!
Thanks..!!
And btw,i'm aiming for AJC after "O" lvls..!!
Buaiis Bloggers..!!

Reminiscence for the last 7 days

2009-01-16T14:37:00.006+08:00

Finally i get to blog today..

Sorry for abandoning my blog for so long..

Last thursday,4E1 went to Ngee Ann Poly open house..

The ppl there warmly welcomed us..

There was some sort of sweet treats there..

Such as free popcorn and free candy floss..

There was a convention centre exhibiting their courses..

We went there from 1.30-4.30pm..!!

The embellishment there was majestic..!!

But too bad i have a low chance of going NAP..!!

Coz there is so far~~~

Many People oh..??

NAP's Convention Exhibition centre..

Students from all different schools..

Senthil standing like a small kid..

On the same particular day..
There was the Sec 1 CCA oriatation too..
I only merely took some pictures of them..
Here are some pictures..

One day later..which means friday..
We went to Nanyang Poly Open house..
Early released from school at 11am..
Took the coach to NYP and sat beside Gau wei..
Reached there at around 11.30am..
But when we got there..
The ppl there was sorta abit ciao ciao..
Not as good as NAP..
They seems boisterous 24-7..!!
We went in NYP through the School of IT backdoor..
We proceeded to the first station..
It was like some sort of drama course..
They sang some sort of "Angmoh" songs..
Some ppl were impressed..Some not..
After tat we went to School of Life Sciences & Chemistry..
Proceeded to the Aerobotical course..
The lectureres said that this course pays the highest salary..!!
But confirm very boring as it is a renewed course..

Renovation

2009-01-06T15:46:00.002+08:00

Hey people sorry for not posting sooooooooo long..!!

my blog is under renovation till 12/1/2009..

Lols gonna change my blog 100%..

Please wait for 6 days ok..?

Thanks thanks..

Rmb to come here next monday..!!

Bye..!!

11/12/2008

2008-12-11T15:07:00.008+08:00

Last Table Tennis Banner Design for 2008..!!

Our Table Tennis banner for 2008..!!

Cold weather now..
Can hear rain dripping one drop by one drop..
Ears too sharp le..
Today Table Tennis Mr Kuan take over..
Very very very very sui today..
Dun wan say why..
Why everything in Table Tennis i responsible one..??
This world so bias..
Today took out our Table Tennis Banner..
If netball wan take over than let them take over bah..
Ladies first mah..
Anyway we are only hanging our banner at 23/12/2008..
Scare ppl sabotage our banner..
Anyway we got secret weapons to our new modified banner le..!!
Heaven's secret's cannot be revealed..
Hehe..
12pm went drinking lemon tea with my TT clan..
Tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok..
Until 1pm..
Then now at LAN..
Blogging+MSN+Patronizing+Blog Hopping+Enjoy air-con..
Now only 3.20pm..
So less ppl online..
So long never see Guangyang Sec ppl le..
Missed them a lot..
But nvm bah..

Life still has to go on..

Must survive..!!

Then end here now bah..
Till then i only wish to say..
Buaiis..!!

9/12/2008 (Banner Day)

2008-12-09T16:19:00.005+08:00

Very tired today sia..
Before table tennis training at around 7.45am..!!
We proceed on to out last banner editing..!!
We did some patch-up and some D-I-Y work..!!
Finished painting at around 9.05am..!!
Then let it dry till 9.35am..!!
When we hang the banner..
The Netball ppl say we stole their banner "parking" lot..!!
So after hanging up oh..
Went back for training till 11.40am..!!
Then oh..
When we go back to see our banner oh..
One of the D-I-Y arrows drop off from our banner..!!
Somemore missing..!!
The Netball ppl say they dunno where is it..!!
Many TT members went back le..!!
Left Me, Chin you, Mirza and some sec 1 ppl..!!
So we wanted to remove the banner..!!
After removing we thought of putting back again..!!
Coz scare the netball ppl hijack our position..!!
Then suddenly..
One netballer call SERENE keep on criticizing us..!!
Think is becos she think we stole the netball's position..
So we declared war on her..!!
Then tok rough to each other for quite long..!!
She insulted Table tennis..!!
But nevermind la..
Maybe she is tat type of person ma..
So at around 1pm then go le lor..
Gotta go already..
Buaiis..!!

The legend of the condor heroes

2008-11-27T14:37:00.008+08:00

I love this show a lot..!!

I'm addicted to watching this..!!

I'm gonna spend the whole holiday watching this..!!

Guangyang Sec

2008-11-15T11:06:00.008+08:00

Unanalysed group's Biodegradable plastic

My team's solar boat

Jing Zhi and Sherman

My solar cooker and solar boat group..!!

My school..SGSS with Valerie..!!
Guangyang Secondary...All nice and friendly ppl..!!

Months since i use internet..
Previous 5 days for the NYP AEM course..
Made frens with Guangyang Sec..
Guangyang Sec was friendly..
Valerie says i look like 90% of her brother..

I call her Hor-Jie..

Won the competition for Solar Boat race..

Felt sad to leave them..
Cried yesteday night..
Specially thanks my group members Wanqin and Calvin..
Deguang,Meixuan,Kar yin,Weinee..

Jing Zhi,Ryan,Sherman,Tze hin..
Hope to see them again in future..
Good luck to them..
Gotta go..
Bye..

My Final Results

2008-10-17T16:08:00.003+08:00

English--- 50 C6
Chinese--- 56 C5
E maths--- 93 A1
A maths--- 79 A1
History & SS--- 79 A1
Combined Science--- 78 A1
Pure Chemistry--- 76 A1

Condor heroes (PC)

2008-09-30T22:34:00.008+08:00

Condor Heroes (PC Game)

English Paper 2

2008-09-29T22:00:00.002+08:00

ENGLISH PAPER 1 & 2

This is my 60th post..
Today was the first day of exams..!!
It was English Paper 1 & 2..
The papers were so difficult..!!
And i screwed up for my essay..!!

(Paper 1)
Section 1 chose Topic 5("Danger") for my essay..!!
I wrote crap and irrelevant things..!!
And i wrote out of point..!!
For this essay..
I can pass happy already..!!
And Section 2 was news report..!!
I only had 20mins left..
So i wrote very less and crap again..!!
Format also wrong..!!
Today's effort put in was disappointing..!!
Compared to my Mid-year standard..
It was world's apart..!!

(Paper 2)
Paper 2 was worse..!!
The passage was ambiguous..!!
I misunderstooded a lot of parts..!!
My answers were mostly wrong..!!
And i had insufficient time to do..!!
I screwed up for both papers..!!
Many people also lost confidence..!!
If i FAIL my English paper 1 & 2..
I'm afraid that i may drop to Normal Academic..!!
If i really fail..
I will lose confidence in myself forever..

Exams start..!!

2008-09-29T01:02:00.005+08:00

Only one thing to say..!!

Everyone..!!
Exams starts NOW..!!
GOOD LUCK..!!

Very very tired..

2008-09-28T00:44:00.002+08:00

zzZ...zzzZ......Zzzz...........zZZ...yawning....zz
Now is 12.50am..!!
Very tired..Feel like sleeping..!!
But have to say my last words first..!!
Than only can drop into a deep slumber..!!

Today went history at 9am in C02-01 air-con class..!!
During history i always act silent..!!
Then everyone tot i emo and pessimistic type one..!!
Coz i nvr smiled to anyone in history before..!!
Laughs*..I suppose not many people know my identity..!!
Except Beverley, Manisha, Mariono, Jenisha, Calvin etc..!!
They same class as me so they know my trueform..!!
I'm a damn damn~~damn damn~~damn damn~~
Noisy+Kiasu+Loud+Dangerous+Violent+Crazy person..!!
During history break at aroung 10.10am..
I, manisha and one girl (dun know what name) did smth..!!
We infiltrated the corridors of 3E1 when Ms Cheng teaching..!!
We did it on purpose..!!
We burst into laughters when we saw Ms Cheng's hairstyle..!!
Coz it was like some "Mongol Hairstyle"..Round hairstyle..!!
At 11.15am history ended..!!
I, Manisha, Adele, Jenisha, Beverley and that "girl"..
Hide in 3E2 classroom and eavesdrop on Ms Cheng's lesson..!!
Some classmates saw us thought we crazy..!!
We found a "paper" in 3E2 mocking at chormay as a pig..!!
Wanted to tell her(She was outside) but scare she sad..!!
So in the end never took any actions..!!
When Physics ended, we barged in..!!
To take our common test paper and worksheet..!!
Ms cheng told us a palpable joke..It was sarcastic..!!
She say her mother like her hairstyle and say she very cute..!!
Eh..We never faint consider lucky liaos..!!
Went to eat with Jing ze and Ah hei..
Saw Chee hao, Joan, Beverley, Adele, Yunling, Angeline..!!
Aiya..That "gayish" uncle keep pestering us..!!
We not gays ok..!! I'm civilised..!!
At 12pm tok with Senthil under Blk 552 Ave 4 again..!!
We tok about primary sch stuff and gossiped..!!
Tok..tok..tok and tok until 2pm..!!
Then walk home slowly alone..!!
Thinking and thinking as i walk..!!
Did E maths revision paper for 3 hours..!!
zzZ...
Then now using computer..!!
Only Beverley, Calvin, Benedict and Shannon online..!!
Sianz..Gonna report back soon..
Fall in..!! Fall in..!!
Buaiis..!!

Forgot to post earlier on..!!

2008-09-26T23:27:00.002+08:00

I forgot to post about my schedule earlier on..!!
Here it goes..!!

Today morning got super big rain..!!
Reached school at 7.35am..!!
Some even reach school at 7.45am..!!
Sad my umbrella was a bit damaged..!!
Anyone can buy me an umbrella..??
LOLz..>>!! =X
Eeew..Maths went through coordinate geog wksht..!!
Ms Tay dirtied my uniform accidentally with marker..!!
History sat alone..!! (Coz i'm decent)
Physics that new teacher thought again..!!
Then Mdm Ong was coaching him..!!
My group was laughing like hell..!!
We said that he was a "obedient dog"..!!
MT as usual...Slept and snored like a "Sow"..!!
Then got Bio extra lesson..!!
Took down many notes on Anaerobic Respiration..!!
At this rate i will have Aerobic Respiration problem..!!
Sreeraj, Me, Sohming, Peimin and Jenisha had fun..!!
Why..??
It goes like this..During Biology..
My group kept on disturbing Jenisha (Head Councillor)..!!
We kept teasing her about Navan..!!
And we discussed some "dirty" jokes about them too..!!
We were laughing like some insane people..!!
In the end my group got kana scolded by Mrs Tay..!!
Mrs Tay keep saying "Bubu" is a talkative fish..!!
Then i very PS lor..HATE that nickname---"Bubu"..!!
My class know what it means in Nepal..!!
Lesson ended at 1.45pm..!!
Helped to arrange chairs and tables for exams..!!
Then went to eat with my "Clan" at coffeeshop..
Saw Huiyu and Yushi..!!
I sat down and didn't knew they were beside me..!!
Never saw them properly
If not i will sit very far away..!!
Coz scare that Bp's cousin will call me unlucky..!!
Sobs*..
But in the end still sat beside them..!! =P
Coz they were quite friendly..!!
Not like tigers or any carnivorous animals..!!
So just said "hi" to them..!!
Eat finish then siam liao..
I and Senthil reminiscienced about my pri sch..!!
We discussed very funny things about old pri sch ppl..!!
So funny that we chat for 1 hour under Ave 4 Blk 536..!!
Reached home at 4.30pm..!!
Then slept from 5.40-7pm..!!
Gonna sleep at 1am..!!
Tommorow still got history extra class..!!
Hist students go History Lesson..!! (9-11am)
Geog students go Physics lesson..!! (9-11.30am)
Coz history students due to same schedule with Phy..
So Physics for history students..
Substitude to next monday after Eng Paper 1..!!
Means that i cannot join 3E1 for Physics..!!
Coz i'm one of the history students from 3E1..!!
Will miss Bp, Jing Ze, Senthil, Benedict, Sreeraj tmr..!!
They go Phy while i go History..!!
Ok lar..Tired le..
So..
Buaiis..!!

3 days to exams (Friday)

2008-09-26T21:47:00.003+08:00

Aiya..Time flies man..!!
Exams are in 3 days time..!!
Bp's cousin say she not using com when near exams..!!
She even say mother let her use also she dun want..!!
In the end...
She still use the computer..!!
LOLz..!!

Now more people are saying sec maths easier..!!
Old ppl i mentioned in my previous blog plus..
Bp, Huiyu, Sreeraj, Soh ming, Gau wei..!!
Really meh..??
I find primary maths a thousand times easier..!!
My results for maths...
Sec---60-70
Pri---85-100
Such a big difference..!!
The first exam paper will be English..!!
How am i going to handle essays..??
Guess..!!
Answer is..!!
Use cheem words + Study hard + Phrases..!!
But so far oh..
My ratio of passing eng to failing is 2:9..!!
Except Mid-year compo got 26/30..!!
That was my best compo ever..!!
But oh..Now old liao..!!
Stupid le..So i scare i cannot handle..!!
Can any eng pros from 1E1,2E1,3E1,4E1 help me..??
I very noob sia..!!
But i shall show my true potential for End-of-year..!!
Everyone shall get a surprise from me..!!
Well gotta study..
Buaiis..!!

Exams in 4 days time..!!

2008-09-24T23:30:00.002+08:00

Today was boring..!!
Reached school at 7.27am..!!
Backrow Councillors were staring at me..!!
I don't know why though..
I know, I'm too handsome..JKJK..!!
Lessons were extremely boring..!!
But exams are very fun..!!
Coz you could see how nervous everyone feels..
Also you can know how much you had progressed..!!

In primary school i used to be well-versed in Maths..!!
Always get 85-95 marks..!!
But now look at my marks..!!
People say Secondary maths is easier than Primary..!!
Some includes Rabiya, Juai, Alicia and Jing Ze..!!
I can't believe it..In my aspect its the opposite..!!
I mean how can sec maths be easier than primary..??
Its definitely harder right..??

Well..Exams are approaching in 4 days time..!!
Yet i could still use my computer..!!
I do not really understand my problems..!!
Maybe i'm lazy..??
Well i'm not sure..!!
Since then i shall end here..!!
Buaiis..!!

2008-09-24T00:52:00.004+08:00

Ms Mok's Trip to Wuhan..!!

Miss Mok acting cute..!!

Yo everyone..!!

Exams are approaching..!!

Wishing everyone Good luck..!!

Regarding today..

Physics was quite sianz coz of that new obese teacher..!!

He teach until so inexperienced..!!

Mdm Ong is tremendously better than him..!!

Then was History/Humanities..

I sat alone again..So alone..!!

Mr Ahman told us questions for End of year exams..!!

So good lor..Can get A1 confirmed..!!

Sad that he leaving by end of this year..Sob*..!!

Subsequently was PE..!!

Played Captain's ball..!!

My team was me, Jing Ze, Senthil(Ah hei) and Juai..!!

Other team was Gau wei, Chen wei, Navan and Sharyl..!!
My team won..!!
Recess ate 2 burgers..!!
After recess was chem..!!
Redox reaction was confusing..!!
Then next was English..!!
Mrs Tan went through letter writing and speech formats..!!
Finally was Maths..!!
Ah..!! Here comes the fun part..!!
She thought new chapter---Coordinate Geometry..!!
The new formula was long-winded and

Last week before exams start..!!

2008-09-23T00:18:00.006+08:00

Temasek Polytechnic is my last polytechnic choice..!!
Same as Chormay..!!
Coz that place is an Apocalypse..!!

Temasek Polytechnic

Today is finally the last week..
Before the E-O-Y exam starts..!!
Everyone is on tenterhooks now..!!
But as for me i still can use computer..!!
Lazy right..?? Yes i agree..!!
Coz my zodiac is the year of "rooster"..!!
So wat can i do..??
Roosters sleep at dusk..!!
Roosters scream at dawn..!!
Sighs*..!!
Today nothing much actually..!!
Ms Mok anyhow make things worse for me today..!!
She told the whole 3E1 i'm "Bubu", her pet dolphin..!!

BUBU (Baby Dolphin)

She said that i need to perform..!!
Perform hoop looping/jumping..!! (Dolphin Sport)
Kao..!!
Than everyone laughed when Jeson said something..!!
He said "Bubu" in Nepal means "Breasts"..!!
I was like "WTF"..!!
Than gossips now spread to 3E2 and 3E3 le lor..!!
Walao..!!
Tommorow i dun feel like coming school..!!
Everyone keep calling me "neh" (Breasts)..!!
Sohming said that first, and everyone followed..!!
Must hide, must hide..!!
Okay since than..
Buaiis everyone..!!

Saturday Maths Remedial

2008-09-21T19:43:00.007+08:00

Yesteday had Maths Remedial...
This is my story...

Woke up at 7.15am..!!
Supposed to meet Benedict for breakfast at 7.35am..!!
Chiong and bathed for like 5mins..!!
Then faster change to uniform and wear shoes..!!
When i reach the coffeeshop..Guess wat..??
Benedict already ate finish his breakfast..!!
So i never eat then went school with Benedict..!!
Ms Tay changed from 4E3 to 3E1 classroom..!!
No air-con..3E1 almost died of heat waves..!!
Started lessons at 8.30am..!!
Ms tay taught the same thing again..Draw and Draw!
Sianz...My hand almost broke..!!
Ms Tay let us go break from 10.40-11.30am..!!
Went to 107 coffeeshop with "3E1 clan"..!!
Benjamin was like drooling..?? LOLz..Joking..!!
11.30am ambled back to class for chem..!!
Ms Mok keep on calling me her pet in class..!!
She say that i'm her pet dolphin call "Bubu"..!!
Die..!! She gonna gossip to everyone on Monday..!!
Meanwhile nothing much to post..Sorry readers..!!

Today was playing this PC game: "Blacksite Area51"..!!
Quite nice but story short lor..!!
But only cost $24.90 so nvm la..Not tat expensive..!!
Haiish...Tommorow got school..!!
But that's great i get to meet my "clan"..!!
Well i gotta go eat my dinner..!!
So..
Buaiis readers..!!

Continuation

2008-09-19T22:23:00.004+08:00

Wat makes me post twice a day..??
Usually because i have many things to say..!!
This is the sequel to the previous post..!!

Today morning during assembly was raining cats and dogs..!!
Suddenly somemore..!!
We had to be dispersed immiediately to prevent getting wet..!!
LOLz..>>!!
Tommorow got Chemistry and Maths Xtra.L sia..!!
From 8.15-11.30am..!!
Bp, Ah Jing and me loves listening to Mr.Brownshow..!!
Coz its veri funny..!! Especially "Alien's Invasion"..!!
I only know how to tok crap la..!!
Readers pls dun doze off when reading..!!
If not i will feel very guilty..!!
Buaiis..!! Don't sleep oh..!!

Many ppl missed me..??

2008-09-19T18:36:00.008+08:00

(Lecturer + Senthil ---> Lecthil + H20 + CO2)

Hey Guests..!!
Got miss me..??
3 days never use computer le..!!
So..I gonna post assiduously today..!!
Yesteday slept at 2am midnight..!!
Coz was doing Physics+Chinese+English+Chem Homework..!!
Plus studying for 2 tests..!! (Phy and Bio)
Bp and Benedict ask me why i so long never online..?!
These are the reasons..!!
Maths we drew many many graphs again..!!
Eeew...History studied about "Stalin"..!!
History damn easy for exams lor..!!
Physics go through 10-Years Series and Pratical Wkbk..!!
Sianz lor,3E1 want Ms.Rachel Cheng back..!!
For MT moved to that "run-down" class again..!! (3E3)
Between 12.10-1.20pm had Phy & Bio Common Tests..!!
Surely..Phy very easy..!! Bio moderate..!!
After that Mrs Tan raged into 3E1 and scolded many ppl..
For not handing in Nov 2000 TYS Hmwk..!! (Not me)
She was like so infuriated by them..!!
Then at 1.30pm went for break till 1.55pm..!!
Had Maths extra lesson till 3.25pm..!!
But some stayed till 4.15pm..!! (Including me)
Reached home at 4.35pm..!!
What a streneous day..!! (Phew*)
Well..Since then..
Buaiis..!! (Copyright some "company" again)

13/9/2008

2008-09-13T23:59:00.008+08:00

Somebody unexpected online today...Sighs*

8.15am met with Benedict at 107 coffeeshop..!!
Around 8.40am reached 3E1..!!
Started Chem lessons at 9.10am..!!
Chem was boring..!!
Lessons ended at 11.35am..!!
While helping Ms.Mok to pack up,Senthil tok crap..!!
He tell Ms.Mok some stupid things about me..!!
Then Ms.Mok laughed and go spread to ppl..!!
Damn PS leh..Even Ms Lee Ting Ru knows now..!!
11.55am eat with Jing Ze and Senthil at coffeeshop..!!
I and Jing ze taught Senthil SPECIAL chinese..!!
Senthil dun understand then he said the chinese words..!!
The uncles laughed..Coz he used chinese obscenity..!!
I and Jing Ze laughed non-stop..!!
At 1pm went Jing Ze's house to play..!!
At 3pm then go home..!!
So tired that i slept from 3.30-8pm..!!
Woke up very shocked..Suddenly the room so dark..!!
Online at 9.40pm..!!
Somebody unexpected online from 10.40-11.10pm..!!
So depressing now..!!
Don't know can survive tmr..?..LOLz..>>!!

Sighs*

Buaiis for now..!!(Bp's cousin lauguage)

Reminiscence...

2008-09-12T22:16:00.003+08:00

(Sec 1 and Sec 2 Reminiscence)

Sreeraj and Science Elementz group..!! (North Vista Secondary)
Ms Tay counselling Mariono..?? (Sec 3E1 classroom)
Benjamin and Sylvester..!! (Sec 2 Trip)

Sec 3 Photo.....I look so much mature...!! (LOLz..>>!!)

Sec 2 Photo.....I look more better...!! (Me and Jenisha)
Sec 1 Photo.....I look so childish...!! (Me and Jing Ze)

Update again...nothing better to do...

2008-09-11T22:14:00.005+08:00

Today is another boring day..!!

First step into the school...Sat behind again with Jing Ze..!!
Not so PS sitting behind today..Coz got Jing Ze..!!
Sing the sianz sianz national anthem and school song again..!!
First lesson was maths..Draw many many many circles again..!!
Next was Biology...No Bio presentation today...sad*..!!
Next was SS...EEE the test today no kick lor..(pow*kick*punch)..!!
Then recess go eat with my CLAN again..!!
After recess was Maths, Ms Tay's lesson again...Same draw draw draw..!!
Next was Chem..Ms Mok claimed that her secret was some boring crap..Agree lor..She said her secret with Mrs Tay was just a lunch eating request..!!
Wat a joke..!!
Then was MT, Huang Laoshi on MC..So 3E1 immigrated to 3E3...their class so dark, empty and dirty lor..Poor 3E3 students..Tmr still must go 3E3..!!
And finally at 2.10pm was english..BUT SUPER BOORRINGGG..!!
English was just mainly on teaching how to write articles again..!!
3.10pm released..Went to eat lunch..Purposely late for Table Tennis..!!
At 3.50pm went Table Tennis...The damn fat coach, Mr Lim sucks man..Everytime say he very professional and he has horrendous bad breath (Vomited*)..!!
At 5.40pm Table Tennis ends..!!
Arund 6.10pm went inside "Seven Eleven" with Senthil..Saw 2 Peicai Sec Chinese girls...Senthil was like so obsessed with one of them..he was still looking at them when i asked him what drinks to buy..!!
In the end never buy anything..LOLs..!!
After that i went spectacle shop to repair my spectacles coz a bit bended..!!
The shop Auntie so good, F-O-C repaired my specs for me..!!

Around 6.20pm after all this ambiguous journey then flew home..!!

Just another update...

2008-09-10T21:48:00.003+08:00

Today as usual had a normal day...Tuesday monotonous lessons...

Reached school at 7.28am...Sat behind again during morning assembly(Sitting behind the girls is damn PS but lucky got my frens there...If not i pongteng liao...)
First lesson was Maths..Learnt about modular functions..EEE..!!
After tat was MT...Miss.Huang nvr come..!!
Free period till the next lesson-English..!!
Mrs Tan taught us about articles writing..But damn sianz lor..!!
Recess as usual...met up with Chin you, Jing Ze, Chee tian, Senthil..!!
After recess was Maths again..Arggh again modular functions..!!
then was SS...Test postponed to tmr...yay..!!
Finally, was PCME period..Went com lab 1 do survey..20% were strongly disargee..!!
School ended at 2.10pm..Stayed with my CLAN at coffeeshop till 2.30pm..!!
Then go home..!!

Tommorrow got school...

2008-09-07T23:33:00.003+08:00

Haix...Tommorow got school...!!
9 days passed without us knowing...!!
I finally could see my classmates and frens...!!
Exams are approaching soon...!!
Must start to work hard...!!
My Target For Every Subjects:

English- B4
Chinese- B4
A maths- A2
E maths- A1
Pure Chem- B3
Combined Science- A1
Combined Humanities- A1

L1R4---12
L1R5---15

Anyway...I shall post some other day...!!
Nothing much to post...!!
Wishing everone good luck for Exams...!!

Resident Evil 5

2008-09-06T18:40:00.009+08:00

Beijing Olympics 2008..READ!!!

PC Game for Beijing Olympics 2008
Gameplay Pictures...100m Man sprint...
Swimming...Victorious glory for their country...
Preparing for their race...

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Silent Hill 5: Homecoming

Realistic Effects and Surround Sounds...

Ghastly Dark Creatures...Not Humans...

Creepy Black environments...

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Resident Evil 5

Resident Evil 5 Gameplay Picture...
Ghastly Zombies...Sequel to Resident Evil 1...
Officer Armaggedon As the Main Character...

After Viewing the two Horror Games, SIlent Hill 5 or Resident Evil 5 is more superior? Can't wait to play this two Exhilarating Games but may not have the chance to do as they are only availible in PS3 and XBox 360...i'm a PC Gamer who does not play PS3 or Xbox...SO of course i will not choose any of them but Beijing Olympics 2008 PC Game!!! If anyone got any opinions u are welcome to post...Anyway I'm currently concentrating on other newly-released PC Games such as Empire: Total War, Invincible Wars 2 and Far Cry 2 etc...Btw guess what? There's the Game for Beijing Olympics 2008!(Look Above Again)...Will post other prominent games if i have time...Well tat's all for now!

Mummy III: Tomb of the Dragon King

2008-09-02T21:29:00.004+08:00

Watched this show today...Read my post...

Mummy III: Tomb of the Dragon King
Jet Li in this film with martial fights!!!
Story is on the resurrection of the Qin Dynasty
King Of Qin (Jet Li)

Watched this movie today...The sequel to Mummy II, Mummy III:Tomb of the Dragon King.....It was quite nice, In collaboration of the US and China, the movie features Jet Li and Brendan Fraser to be the main characters...With a mixture of Qin History, Martial arts and English Special effects...Overall Rating "8/10"....Nice show...Must watch!

OK...Today went back to school

2008-09-01T21:11:00.004+08:00

OK...Today went back to school to do Biology Project...

Met with Gau Wei in 3E1 at 9am...

Juai and Alicia did not come coz they werenot free...

So i and Gau wei do first...

We needed a board and vanguard sheet for project so we go and buy them...

We went to 2 neighbouring bookshops but both did not open so early!!!

So dragged back to school with Gau wei...

At 9.30am started planning on the project...

Our topic was on "Four factors of photosynthesis"...

At 10.20am went to bookshop again to buy the materials...

Total cost $6.10 leh!!!

At 11am Gau wei went for floorball...

So do alone till 1pm, meanwhile chatting with the canteen drink stall vendor...

At 1pm saw Udam and went with him to eat lunch at 107 coffeeshop...

Ordered dumpling noodles...Meanwhile v.bored and lonely...

Chatted with him till 2pm then go home...

Ate lunch, Slept for 4 hours, Eat, Bath, then now Blogging...

Well...That's all for now...

Btw Senthil please dun act as "Shilee, Rayna and Yisin"...If u are a man, pls put ur real name...Ur IP address is always the same...

Thank you V.much...

PC Game Title: Return of the Condor Heroes

2008-08-31T20:07:00.006+08:00

Return of the Condor heroes II: Rating i give it 6/10

PC Game Title: Chinese Paladin 4

2008-08-31T19:59:00.001+08:00

One of the Chinese Games I've played...Rating i give it 8/10

Wanted! Senthil has betrayed SIngapore

2008-08-30T19:15:00.002+08:00

Latest News: Tan Ming Hao makes a speech, "A Singaporean has proved treacherous to his own country and Immigrated to America to serve the US army after he was Hydro-attacked by his friends in SGS and escaped to America in fury, Completly Amok"...Anyone who finds him will be rewarded with $500,000 Uk pound!

Happy Teacher's and Aces day!

2008-08-29T21:49:00.003+08:00

Hmm...Well today was a joyful event!!

Today had Aces Day!
Benjamin, Gau Wei etc won prizes for the frisby competition!
Congratulations! What a delectable day!
The school should have organized a longer event...No atmosphere!
If not it will leave an indellible mark on every single students...Haiixx...Wasted...
Released at 12.10pm today...

Then guess Wat?

Me, Jing Ze and Senthil gave Mrs Judy Tan and Mrs Erica Tay flowers!! Guess what the flowers were made of? It's Soap!!! LOLS!!! After that went to ate scrumptious with Brandon, Jing Ze and Senthil at 107 coffeeshop...Senthil as usual, suffered today again from food throwing...Sad for him...But of course its play play type one la...Though its a bit childish? Wanted to go library but closed...Senthil and i went Teens hub to play Table Tennis for about 1 hour? Then went home...Never go BBQ today...Sad lors...i cant go my parents dun allow...SOB*

Will update soon...Bye!!!

Progress Card CA2 Apocalypse!

2008-08-27T23:12:00.012+08:00

Our Future Li Jia Wei, Captain Toh CHin You

Donkey(Left), Monkey(Middle) and Turkey(Right)

HEI-REN.....Hantu GiGi!!!

School release at 2.10pm today...!!

Went 107 coffeeshop with Heiren (Senthil), Brandon (Shadow Boy) and Father-in law (Mr.Oilman)...!!
Ordered Minced Pork Noodle...!!
Saw Beverly, Bing Hui, Huiyu and Yushi too...!!
Senthil demanded $1.20 from me today...Must pay back ok!! =P
Jing Ze organized Money Rationing for me and Heiren today...Throw free $$$ leh!!
Then went home by 4pm...Then studied for Biology and afternoon nap for 3 hours...!!
Very tedious...zZZ...!!

Sobs...!!
Did badly for CA2...!!
Haiish...Must work hard for E-O-Y Exams...!!
Tommorrow still got Powerpoint Presentation...!!
Will be able to meet my Father-in-law and Heiren..Then can pour water!!
Soon will be E-O-Y Exams...Wishing all my closest friends Good Luck!!
And of course...Happy Water rationing for Senthil and Father-in-law...!!

My Results for CA2:

English- 42.0 (D8)
Chinese- 48.0 (D7)

E Maths- 66.0 (B3)
A Maths- 28.0 (F9)
Pure Chemistry- 56.0 (C5)
Combined Science- 68.0 (B3)
Combined Humanities- 75.0 (A1)

Overall persentage: 52.8%!!!

L1R5 for CA2- 27

L1R4 for CA2- 20

My CA2 Results Sucks Like Hell!!!!!!!!

Opening Ceremony again! Emo Boy is back!

2008-08-17T19:26:00.005+08:00

Wushumaster Is back with an APOCALYPSE!!

One of My Favourite PC game, "Blackpith:Area 51"

2008-08-16T22:19:00.004+08:00

This PC Game is called: "Blackpith:Area 51"
One of my Favourite Game...Damn Nice...

Extroadinary Gameplay with Alien Technology
Supreme,ghastly Aliens with a exciting storyline
Two Thumbs up...Versatile and Agile Aliens to fight...

National Day 2008

2008-08-11T20:52:00.002+08:00

National Day!!!YAY!!! SO many Fishes i love them
Fireworks....Beijing Olympiads was better....
NDP 08 Formation....Orgainzed....But Not impreesive enough...
Childish Acts.....
Councillors singing...!!!
My disciples performing...Not Well-Trained...

My Cute Classmates, My Indian Father and My Father-in-law...LOLZ>>!!!

2008-08-07T23:01:00.005+08:00

My Indian Father, HEI-REN (Partially Transparent)
Standing there like a small kid...Aiyo...Still my father somemore...
Look at the way he eat...

My Father-in-law, So CUTEEEEEEEE!!!!!
OMG!!! SO BICONVEX!!! Turgid and Firm too!!!

Fishball Rolling over the Ocean...LOLZ>>!!!

Ah~~~He was afraid tat I'm going to Post his Photo...Look at him!!! He deleted all his photos in my handphone but too badz my Computer still have ALOT ah!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHZ!!!! Jing Ze Please Enjoy...While Stock Lasts...LOL..>>!!!

Update on Biotechnology Project

2008-08-04T23:46:00.004+08:00

Fractional Distillation

Mrs Tay, Me, Benjamin and Vigi During the Biotechology Experiment...

Very upset coz out project is cancelled due to failure of our experiment...T_T

However according to Mrs Tay, There could be another second attempt for the next upcoming Biotech Project...Pls Hope there is a miracle!!! My Friend's School, Whitley Secondary had got a 2nd award for the previous BioFair 2008...Benjamin If u read this, Please be aware that "The Records Challenge" for our school dance is next Tuesday, 8pm....Benedict and Yunling kana interviewed...And i was behind them...Sure die one...Damn PaiSeh leh!!!

Racial Harmony....3E1 Sgsians!!! One Pic Only...LOLz!!!

2008-08-04T00:08:00.006+08:00

ME, Gau Wei, Senthil, Benedict and Mathilda

Today Maths Olympiad Actual Day!!!

2008-07-29T22:31:00.008+08:00

Lessons ended at 3.40pm...Today...

Went to Library and almost killed "TWO" person today...Coz they did something discreditable...Haix dun wan to say...At around 4pm went for Maths Olympiad Competition!!! but today was so relaxing becoz all we do is to just "Copy and paste" the answers...Ms Joseph very blur did not even realise we were using calculator...LOL>>!!! The Questions DAMN hard lor...But it is just equilvilant to my standards so to me is no problems la...The whole Maths Olympiad Ms Joseph provided sandwiches for us today...Tok, Laugh and Gossiped with Farah, Rabiya, Manisha, Benedict, Benjamin, Navan, Xiang Shun and Chen wei for the whole competition...Ms joseph like dun even care lor...At around 5.45pm then end...Wonder if can attain distinction or not? HAHAHAHAHAHA...

After Finish Maths Olympiad Competition...

After that went home alone...2 blocks way from school only!!! 5mins later reached home...Completed Physics, Chinese and Social Studies Homework...
Wah Damn Funny lor today's Record Challenge show on TV was damn Funny lor!!!
After announcing our school as the winner, Ms Cheng was jumping jumping jumpinggg like a small kid today...ROTFLMAO today when i was watching it today...Hope 3E1 classmates saw tat today on TV...

Extra information...

I hope to attain At least a 13 for L1R4...
I hope tat SGS will be more perfect...BECOZ our school really (****s)!!!!
I just can't stand the sight of everything man...Eeewww!!!
Wanted to go to prominent schools like Hougang, Deyi or Ang Mo Kio Secondary (But not Whitley) during the period of choosing secondary schools...
Senthil got into Whitley, But got of there becoz he says he can't stand the old, dirty and disgusting sight of the facilities (The toilets, Canteen, Classrooms) there damn old ya know!!!! PPl who studies in Whitley i wonder how they survive there...???
No wonder the students so...ya know...in chinese called "Luan qi ba zhao"...!!!
Considered myself lucky not to be in such a school...Phew!!!

BYEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

Today's Update ( 28/7/2008)

2008-07-28T22:52:00.002+08:00

Cannot believe that there is Bio and Phy common test tmr and here i could still use the computer...

Hell...Hell...Hell...I feel so so so sad sad sad....Recently has been blacklisted by Ms.Mok, Mrs Tay, Ms Tay, Mrs Tan and Ms Cheng...Ah..Ah..Ah...Senthil is so funny...If u all have seen wat he did today at 5.30pm u all will laugh until u all asphyxiated ah...Sigh...Sigh...Sigh..Tommorow gonna have PE!!! Yeah i love this subject man!!! But dun know taking wat sports activities....Hope no height and weigh taking...EEEEwww!!!

Now is 11.02pm...

I suddenly remembered my primary school friends...The childhood flashbacks of how i used to play, experience traumatizing events and suffer together...It left an indellible mark on my mind till today the feeling is till there...Especially the last day of primary school, It was like an Apocalypse everyone were very sad and separated...

Time to depart....To where? To sleep la!!!! Then wat? LOL..>>!!!

Boring WEEKEND

2008-07-26T00:10:00.005+08:00

This Is ME!!! A Dolphin With Freedom!!!

LOL..Above Tat Dolphin Is my wish...As During the Weekends will be very Bored la...So my hope is to be as free as this Little Fish...I know i sounds childish...But At least Very cute right? Yeah...My blog is getting more and more densely populated le...Kana ASPHYXIATE soon...Today is an Invigorating day...After School went to Library to do my Powerpoint slides...None of my Friends were at the library so Alone today...Except for some Crazy Anonymous Girls keep on Pestering me today...They all so pervertic...

Today I feel SOOOOO Mundane!!! Btw this Post looks pretty Artistic rite? Now is 12.40am midnight...But still not sleepy...Today Yunling never come School coz she sick...Wish her Speedy Recovery...Btw If Huiyu saw this post, The word "Verbose" That i type in her blog means Long-Winded, Complex and Complicated...Got it Huiyu?

Today's Events

2008-07-25T00:26:00.005+08:00

Today had an arduous day...Until 3.10pm...After that went to coffeshop to makan with Gau wei, JIng Ze and Hei Ren(Senthil)...After that Jing Ze pong-teng Table-Tennis and went home..LAzy boy...Senthil and me said "Bye!" to Gau Wei and both of us went for Table-Tennis...Coach very fat la...Always drink beer and smoke...Hate ppl who drinks and smokes...Senthil and me Tok about Shilee for a while and we begin our TT training...At like around 4pm....Damn LAte lor...We were released at 5.20pm...Senthil, Me, Chin you and Ruzaini went to deliver the nets and balls back to staffroom...After tat i and Senthil saw yushi and huiyu downstairs in the parade square...SHouted about BEnedict at them but they did not saw us...HAHA...Unfortuantely when i and Senthil went down, Huiyu and Yushi came to me and started hitting me with the netball...If Benedict saw this post, i gotta tell him this "Control your wives!"...Haha no la just jk...i very naughty one...That's wat makes me notorious! Walked home with Senthil, Chin you and Ruzaini...By the time reach home its like 6.15pm le!!!!! At 7.30pm went to shilee's blog to see wat senthil spam at her blog again...And i was right...HAHA

Tan Ming Hao, The Most Treacherous!

RENOVATION IN PROGRESS

2008-07-23T23:56:00.000+08:00

I know that i have not Updated my blog for several days...RENOVATION is in progress and a COLOSSAL SURPRISE is going to be occuring soon...Anyway this few days are hectic as i'm busy SPAMMING ppl's blog...

Promise to update ASAP ok?
Sorry for delaying ok? Everyone?

Everyone: Ming hao u are my idol!!!! U are so benevolent...We will wait!!
Ming Hao: Wah thanks everyone...
Everyone: URe welcome coz ure handsome
Ming Hao: LOL
Everyone: LOL

Plans For Racial Harmony Day

2008-07-20T01:17:00.001+08:00

Saturday...Time Flies...
Woke up at 1.20pm today...So late!!!
Had a chat with Sreeraj for 40mins in the afternoon...
Haix then it was night soon...SO fast lor!!!
Next Monday gonna meet with Chinyou, Senthil and Jing Ze as early as 6.15am in the morning at coffeeshop...Coz wanna accompany them...ANyone wants to join in ure welcome!!!
Ah,,,,,,,Senthil and me very naughty this few days...Did domething to people's blog discreditably...WAkakakakaZ!!!!!We are very treacherous!!! YEsss!!!!

Hmm...Hope Monday comes soon...Than can create catastrophes to other again...SO unthodox!!!
Terminates here...
ZZZZ........

2008-07-19T01:49:00.000+08:00

Our Biology teacher on the second left...Lol...Colossal

Treacherous Apocalypse!!! Must be Scintillating...

"Anticipate Change And Stay Relevant"

Gau wei Past Times...So Rejunevating =) Gau wei on top left hand corner...Senthil so

assiduous...Sylvester don't know do what...

Slacking? Jeson playing with his hands...

Termination Of the Juveniles past

2008-07-19T01:00:00.001+08:00

Back in Primary school, I used to be very obscene, talkative, chaotic and tremendously inmature...But ever since Primary school the very last day of school, my thoughts metamorphosed...It was the last day where classmates, teachers and friends are separated, a very traumatic experience...Especially My old friends...

3 years later....

My Grieve was finally Alleviated...I realised that it was not a moment of folly to bother abouit such things...For these 3 years, Along the streets everywhere I met umpteen primary school mates but sadly, they do not Recognise my appearance le...I changed too much and there was no signs of recogniztion from them when i greeted them...Some remembered but mostly don't...Even my Best friends(Suvin, Kevin, 6A) don't remember me...They have persued their own path of life and it was destiny...And so my choice is made up...I shall delete my childhood memories...I should seek my path of light too...Globalization, a word that my Speaker Master, Ng Gau Wei thought me...I'm like a pariah everywhere...Anonymous and I'm History down the road... This is where a new epoch begins for me...Today many schoolmates have changed Tremendously...Primary Schoolmates like Kevin Loh, Li Zhaolong, Joey, Shilee, Jireh, Zien, Madeline, Daniel Tay, Jia Sheen etc have changed profondly into Clever people...In Prominent Secondary Schools...I shall Archeive that Goal too...GOGOGO!!!

Treacherous WushuMaster...

Final Fantasy 7 Trailer

2008-07-18T13:41:00.000+08:00

Will update my blog soon...

2008-07-18T01:09:00.000+08:00

OK la OK la!!! WILL Update my blog by TOMMOROW...